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Dumbass people has been giving out my email address to people I don't know and signing me up for stupid mailing lists. Now I have tons of spam directed to my inbox because of some freaky newsletters that I can't unjoin and announcements for dumb stuffs.
That's the top reason why I say, "Death to all mailing lists!"
Not to mention there's also several dumbass guys who write emails to a person named Barbara and it lands nowhere else other than my email. Fuck dammit, whoever that Barbara person is, I'm going to fucking kill her for giving away my fucking email address rather than her fucking email address.
Hehe. Yes, Le has a habit of overwriting Kig's index file. It's entertaining and pretty amusing for me, as an onlooker. ;)
Oh, by the way, the phone line's back! *tosses confetti around*
Ugh ugh ugh. I thought my site and referral tracker has messed up and stopped counting altogether, but in reality I had actually placed the wrong codes in my HTML files.
Dumb codes!
Lesson of the Day: Always put the blame on somebody else.
Blah. It's 7.30am, and I think it's past time I sleep before I get too tired to go to Kuantan like I planned to.
Hmm... maybe Jaring is trying to cut back on my socializing online. I can't interact with anyone at all! No AIM, no ICQ, no mIRC!
You know... now that I've rebooted the darn CPU, I managed to FTP my journal entry, only to find that I can't get into #protagonist chatroom server. How insane is that?!
Le sent me this through email. Someone in her college sent it out... well, honestly, is this a new thing? Hehe, I thought it had been around for ages! Kelantan is one freaky state to live in, that's for sure. I'm just afraid that Terengganu might end up like that too. If that ever happens, I'm moving!
As of now, PAS has already banned all the entertainment sites (inclusive of snooker clubs and movie theaters and arcades) and also those TOTO and Magnum and 3D stores (where people place bets). Hrm. And they stressed that Muslim women workers has to wear the headscarf or else the company risks getting fined. And... what else? I can't quite remember.
But why do I have the sinking feeling that it's ever so slowly becoming a carbon copy of Kelantan?
I don't get it... I think she gets a kick from getting everyone hungry!
*clings to E and cries* E, we're both subjected to the stalker's demands! What are we to do now? Oh, what are we to do?
*fakes dramatic helplessness*
I'm pissed at the moment because ICQ and WS FTP won't let me connect. I can't upload my journal entry for yesterday. I can't chat with my friends.
Grr.
I know I've been slacking off. Hello... one post in a day after two days of non-blogging?! One would think that I'd have so many things to say. But truthfully, craps need time to fly by my head. Yes, sometimes nonsense takes time to think out too.
Since Le wanted me to blog more, I thought I might as well link her too... so that she can stop bugging me now.
In a way, I'm really envious of her because she's getting a whole new outlook in life because she's over there and getting a new form of education. But then I think about it, I wonder if I'll be able to cope up as good as she did in that new situation.
It scares me. Changes scares me.
Yes, I'm watching the 73rd Academy Awards. So what?
Since we're still talking about songs, I'd like to say something. Bjork has a kind of singing that makes her song sounds amazingly like a mantra, and it sticks to your head and replays over and over again like a chant. It's freaky.
I'm not sure if that's a good thing for not. She scares me.
Every time I listened to the song Butterfly Kisses, I feel like crying. *sigh* That song just means so much to me. I was Daddy's Girl. I was so close to my father that we shared a special bond that my brothers aren't included in. I was the only one who calls our father "Daddy" instead of "Pa" or "Father". And I still am.
Love you, Daddy.
If I'm ever going overseas to study, Mom says I'll have to go by scholarship. Or else I'm stuck here. *sigh* But what are my chances to land on such a fabulous scholarship to allow me to attend a college or university overseas anyway? I was hoping either US or UK...
But with my kind of results... hmph! If I were in charge of choosing the students, I wouldn't even choose myself. =/
Awww... *huggles*
For some reason, both of my ISPs doesn't seem to like mIRC much.
You know, I want to bring my webcam to the cemetery too. I think the Chinese cemetery is an interesting place. A lot of colors and carvings and stuffs. I'm just afraid that the older generations might think that I'm impolite and crap and then start bad-mouthing me to my mother and blaming my parents for my "wrong" upbringing. Sheesh.
I might end up bringing anyway.
My my, I am proud of you, my dear Steph. ;) Keep up the good work. Hehe.
Oh, and love the journal layout.
She is good. Wow.
Hehehe... sorry for being such a pushy girl, but I was getting worried here. =/ And I always check all the weblogs everyday for updates... and I expect some!
Ting and Ling are both putting down Malaysia. *cries*
Oh well, it's not as if I like this place either... but only I can put down Malaysia like that because I'm a frickin' Malaysian! All of you others are supposed to respect the damn country! >:O
Hehe. No, I'm not a patriot. I just want a reason to blog their team blog. ;)
Chris, Chris, and... um... this is supposed to be another Chris, but it's a band page? Heh. Oh yeah, all of them are people I met through The Protagonist Boards, and they're mad cool.
I know, I know. What a copy of my "4 Pei's" post, but it's still interesting. ;)
Hehe, nice use of inline frames, Xebaroo! I love that layout... :)
Talking about corruption, I've created a monster! I corrupted Li Chin's brain during the holidays and now she's pretty much uncontrolable... she now has a mind of mine and an attitude of hers! That kind of combination is hella dangerous!
Whoops! Hehe, there goes the perfect-school-prefect Li Chin, in comes the not-so-innocent chick. Goodness... I wonder what I actually did.
Do the teachers regret selecting her as the head prefect now? Heh.
I personally think that we're all teaching Kig the wrong kind of English with all of us cussing in our diaries, the chatroom, and at the message boards. Hehehehe. And he's cussing like anything now. It's amazing how he picks up those cusswords! I mean, I knew them for a long time and I didn't even dare to use them until I'm at the age of 15 or something.
Man, we're corrupting people so bad!
Hehe, Gentle's description of me in his characters page:
"Pei rocks. She's an extremely intelligent girl who is upset cuz she can't drive yet :P. She's from Malaysia, and is also an avid visitor of the protagonist chatroom and an admin at the boards. Hell yeah, Pei kicks ass. She's pretty good with web design. I'm glad I know her -- she's a great friend."
Aww... hehe, you rock to, Gentle. Although I haven't been talking to you a lot lately. >:O Oh, and I've finally decided that I'd rather be chauffered around than drive myself. Hehe. Especially when it comes to long-distance driving... *grins*
*laughs*
I was wondering what broken links there are (both Sookie and Kig reported broken links) since I'm just changing the layout and not the content, and then I finally remembered. I added a new section called "Escape" and I didn't even get around making it yet. Duh.
It's a link section though, so it's not like you missed out on anything. I'll make it now. Hehe.
Remember my little promise to keep away from the net? Heh, it didn't exactly worked that way either... I'm still online now!
And it's 5.12am... oh gosh. Am I glad I don't have school to go to today! *celebrates*
Ling Ling... where are you... why aren't you blogging? Or journalling? *cries* I miss you...
Aww... Lauryn sent me a thank-you card!
Oh, yay! I have a new neighbour... and he is no one other than Gentle! Hehe. You just can't help but luff him, huh? ;)
What an entertaining journal he has too. =P It kept me grinning for some time.
Nice nick, Le! Hehe.
Ugh... I just realized something. I'm such a girly-girl when it comes to designing a layout for my journal. Eek... first it was the one with a rose and with a little bit of red color, obviously done a girl. Except that it's not so bad, it's pretty sweet and kinda romantic in a way. Now it's a purple layout with an elegant font for the title graphic! Even girlier!
I did not plan that!
Hehe, finally Lauryn's birthday guestbook is launched and made public! And she pretty much deserves all that attention too... she's a nice person, a great hostess, and an all-around cool girl. She has ambition and ability. And I have her to thank for a lot of things too.
Happy 15th birthday, Lauryn!
P.S.: You can still sign that birthday guestbook if you'd like to wish Lauryn a happy birthday too. ;)
I thought it was an omen when my ISP disconnects me from the net as I was trying to upload my new layout for the journal. Maybe I'm supposed to keep the old layout, the one with the rose. It meant so much to me... and I loved that. I still do.
But it's time for a change. I might reuse that layout again some time in the future, but for now, I want something new.
So something new is born. Enjoy.
Argh... I'm so sleepy... *yawns* I don't know what makes me so tired today! I didn't even do many things... and none of them are particularly exhausting. And it has only been a little over 13 hours being awake.
I'm going to try to stay awake for the next few hours though. Or else Le might be pissed at me when she wakes up.
New layout for Sookie's weblog! Though a little empty on the left side, I think I like it this way too... the colors she used are nice. Brown. Hmm...
I think I'm beginning to be taken by brown. Such a warm, cozy color. But I'm trying to create a journal and a site layout, which I doubt will be centered around brown.
At the moment I'm enjoying some canned pineapples (I love pineapples!) for "dinner" since I didn't have any and the rest of them already ate while I was away from home. I'm starving, what can I do? ;)
I wouldn't complain, of course!
I've been away from home since 10am. Yeah, I've been out for ten hours running. O.o
I sound insane yesterday and depressive two days ago. Am I on a steady road to psycho world?
Sounds like it! ;)
I'm up, I'm up! Congratulate me... I'm very rarely up in the morning... but I managed to pull myself out of the bed about an hour ago, threw myself into the shower, got dressed, packed, and here I am.
O.o
Oh, and by the way, I'm still very sane. Heh.
I'm going to take a break from the net starting tomorrow. I don't think I can take it anymore... the net is a little to stressing these days. I don't know why. Well, after I attempt to fix up the damn scrolling webcam script that wouldn't work with BLOGGED, that is. I would probably log on for a few minutes to upload journal entries and check mail... but no chatting.
Stop worrying. It's not like I'm planning to throw myself out of the window or cut up my wrists. >:O
I hope I can keep with that self-vow. I have so little self-discipline! Heh. But Dad's coming home from Hong Kong tomorrow... no more internet-ing for hours till the end! He'll kill me if he sees this month's bill. Might as well lay low for a little while, right?
One thing will change all of these though. If only I get my CPU back.
Sometimes I wonder although I said I'll never get into a relationship this fast and that I don't believe in long-distance relationships... that I might be in self-denial?
Nah. Couldn't be. Must've been a little romantically influenced by Ee Lynn when I was advising her about her problems. Come to think of it, all of my closest friends are in a relationship right now. It's sweet to watch them. Hehe. Well, except for the part when they're all upset and crap... it just depresses me to see my friends cry. I mean, none of us like crying and all, we all think it's crap and weak. So someone has to be really upset to cry, and that really sucks.
Anyway, my mind's zapping out now. My vision's clouding. I'm crazy. I don't think it's possible anyway, and it's too much work. I'm no workaholic.
I'm so sick.
I'm really not up to waking up early for school tomorrow (read: today!). But I promised my friends taht I'd be there, and my teacher is expecting me to be in attendance too. I can't skip out on my job. Not anymore. Everyone's getting all pissy at me, and I hate disappointing everyone.
Right now my entire body feels whacked. I don't know why either. Even my headache can't compared to how I feel now. Just feels really, really sick. For once, the dark embracing cloud of sleep looks really welcoming...
I don't have my bookmarks today... my laptop isn't working right...
Oh no! *groans* Stupid DigitalRice is screwing my site over.
*sigh*
I think I'll go on hiatus for a while. I don't see how I can do anything right now, and things in my life is just... fucked up.
Tired tired tired. I told Le that I'd be back at around 8pm or so. I turned out that I just got back a few moments ago... 11-something. Whoa!
I was actually planning to play The Sims tonight, but I'm too tired to deal with it right now, as amusing as the game can be. Come to think of it, I just want to crawl into my bed and sleep... I have to wake up early and go to school for a meeting that starts at 10am... yeah, English Society stuffs. *sigh*
I was so depressed yesterday. After sleeping for over 7 hours, I feel rested. But there's this heavy feeling lingering... someone help me, I hate feeling this way. It's just dragging me down.
But at least I'm not crying anymore. That's... an improvement. I think.
And my brother is in a good mood again.
Dumb ICQ has ads in my CPU (my laptop doesn't). What was it again that can take it off? The ads are really pissing me off.
You know, E's right. We don't have a life. But I'm wondering how did she find out about that? I mean, I sure didn't tell her about it.
*glares at Lele for squealing*
Anyway, there's a new layout at her domain, Ingenu.Net. Go and check it out.
We're going to Kuantan later today (well, it's 7am... who the hell go anywhere at 7am?!), so I'm trying to decide what I can buy for my younger brother for his birthday. Hrm... I don't really know. Unless I have enough cash for a PlayStation, I don't see how I can get anything that's on his wish list. ;)
Happy 13th Birthday, Chin Sheng!
I just got yelled at by my brother. Sigh. I'm just gonna go offline and do something that won't piss anyone off.
Like huddling under my covers and crying over how sucky my life is now.
I took another Panadol a few minutes ago. I can't take the headache anymore... it's too much. Sigh.
I hate getting all dependant on medicine and shit. It's a stupid mentality, but... ahh... fuck. I hate headaches. It always gets to me.
Ugh... I'm feeling sick. I have a friggin' headache that just pounds right now. Everyone else is downstairs in the kitchen eating dinner, while I'm up here feeling antisocial and hungry but not wanting to crawl all the way down the stairs, to the shop, into the kitchen and sit at the table.
Sigh.
It seems like a lot of people is sick today. So far, I know of 5 people. All of them are Asian Chinese girls. I don't know why either. Weird!
I always thought life is full of good and bad incidents that will be good and bad memories when we're all grown up. We'd probably look back and laugh at ourselves even if it's a bad incident, in the far off future, things wouldn't seem so bad anymore.
That's why I always took the care to log my daily life, however bland it is, into my journal. Plus, I have a really short memory and I don't want to forget everything I've been through in life. I want memories to look back at, and to know that I haven't actually wasted all my life doing nothing (hey, at least I have things to write in my journal, so it's something).
So Ling, keep on journalling!
Goodness... I never thought it would be possible, but I just walked into my brothers' room just now to shut off the damned annoying alarm clock (no one was in the room and they set that damn thing!), their room is even messier than mine!
What a surprise!
You, a loser? You're kidding, right? You frickin' rock, girl!
Ling says, "Peipeipeipeipeipeipeipeipei is a sweetie pie! I stalk her everywhere! Her journal, her weblog, at the boards and after much persuasion from me, she joined the h-y-p-h-e-n-s.net family!!! I'm so thrilled. She is a wonderful artist and even promise to do a small post-card size painting for me!! yay! And she's a toothpaste addict... hmm which i don't really understand? do you eat toothpaste or anything like that? hee hee."
Hahahaha... um, I guess she really does stalk me. But then again, I stalk everyone else too! That "everyone else" includes her. Muahahahaha.
For more information on the Toothpaste Addict thing, refer here. And... heh, if you wonder why I don't blog a lot last time (if you run through the archives), I used to dislike blogging then and consider it a waste of time. Somehow I got addicted to it. ;)
Sweetie Evan linked me! Aww... thanks, Evan! *huggles*
Talking about links, I haven't updated my links pages for ages. I haven't even touched my personal website for ages. Haha. Like I said, I'm so lazy, it's incredible. I only update it like, once a month or something...
Although I do tend to blog a lot. Hehe.
Oh, in case you haven't figured out yet, I didn't go for tuition today. Not because I'm lazy, mind you. Everyone was shouting cheers of joy when we all realized that there wasn't going to be any Add Math tuition today. ;)
Mr. Foo cancelled on us. Wheeeeeeee!
Although lately I've been meeting a lot of online Malaysians who are involved in the personal website "industry", I still find that more Singaporeans are in it. Thanks to H-Y-P-H-E-N-S Boards, I met more of the Singaporean teen personal website designers. Hehe.
Odd, isn't it? The ratio of land between Singapore and Malaysia is probably won over by Malaysia, but Singapore is far more techie. What a shame to Malaysia.
Hehe.
Sigh... Ling makes such cute and pretty layouts, you know? I don't know when I'm going to be as good. And I'm one of her hostees.
I'm crap. I should really find a time to update the damn cast page! I'm so lazy!
Hehe, Samantha, you'll be one of my special friends if you're kind enough to add the damn permanent linking! >:O
But on the serious note, yeah, I guess you're one of the closer friends I have online. Feel special. I don't get everyone see me online. But then again, I normally let people whom I met through the boards to see me online, because I already know them through the boards.
She says I have funny streaks. That sometimes I don't log at all, and sometimes I log like 982489723 posts a day.
Hehe. But doesn't that happen to everybody? Oh wait, yeah, you don't post like that. And neither do anyone else.
Okay, I'm a freak! *muah*
Umm... okay. So you really do need a host for your journal. Hehe.
But can't you just move it to your current host for the time being? I always thought your journal is part of your personal site anyway. And your journal isn't that big, like over 2MB or something (haha, mine is, because it's all in HTML format and it's over 800 pages). Unless you're actually planning to write in your journal everyday from now on! *hint hint*
;)
Damn, I still think Samantha should have some ways of permanent linking to each of her posts in her weblog. I bugged her through ICQ to do it, but she says that she's sick of CGI. But for the sake of letting Pei log her properly, she wouldn't even do it! And I am Goddess Pei, dammit!
Samantha, you suck! >:O
Modernized Malaysian Chinese guys sucks. It's true. Sucks!!! Well, a lot of them treat girls like shit. I hate that. And the girls dating those guys are no better too, letting the guys treat them like shit yet are so blinded by "love". I don't get it. I wouldn't stick with any guy that's gonna disrespect me. I wouldn't even want to be in the same room as them.
Well... er... any Malaysian Chinese guys reading this? Hehe.
At least you're good at an instrument. I'm not. =P
I had thought that you are going to get a domain after your exams. Heh. Or is ChaoticGirl.Net is going to close down and unhost before then? Or did you change your mind?
Ahh... blah. I suck. I haven't seen you online lately. Missed ya!
I'm such an idiot. Heh. I'm also apparently in an anti-social mood right now, so I don't really feel like talking to anyone online or offline (save for a few close online friends... but then again, I'm also spacing out on them pretty often and go quiet a lot). I'm such a freak. I just want to wallow in my... um... self-pity.
I don't really know why I'm so depressed either. And even if I do, I don't really know how to word it out.
You want to know how far away I have drifted from the online world although I go online almost everyday? Hehe, I was just introduced to ChelleCam.Com by Le, and I think this domain has pretty much existed for some time and is pretty popular. That's a personal assumption though.
Chelle is pretty. If you're a girl, go there and get jealous. ;)
Oh, oh, Ling! I thought your parents practically banned you from eating chocolates? And Toblerone kicks ass... I love them. Yum! It has been such a long time since I ate those. Hehe. And I have horror stories to tell the last time I ate that too! But not now while you're enjoying your chocolates. :) See, I'm such a nice girl.
I'm not particularly tempted though, because I just finished a packet of Twix. Heh, I'm such a glutton when it comes to sweet things.
Ah, the many faces of Ling! Hehe. Isn't she a cutie-patootie? ;)
More and more people are searching for my name through Google and ending up at my diary. And people don't just simply search for names unless they know that person. Meaning they know me. Either that, or someone online is trying to get me all freak out about this.
Am I in trouble again? Maybe I shouldn't have started using my real name instead of my alias.
Hehe, a tip for those who has added me to their ICQ list but never see me online... that's just because I'm always in Invisible mode and only lets those who I am close to know my presence online.
Try to carry an offline-messaging conversation with me if you really want to get to know me. Heh. Because if you're waiting to see me get online... fat chance of that!
A cam portal consisting of the six webcams of people I know. Cool, eh?
But really, it's probably just because we're all involved in The Protagonist Boards. This is The Protagonist Webcam Portal, for the Protagonists with live webcams. ;)
I wonder why Kig was removed? Didn't he want his little webcam to be live anymore?
Oh no, she really does want to use up all my toothpastes! I think I need to restock on that before she comes over... I've already eaten quite a lot of my original stocks.
Oh well. time to go out and shop for Colgate. Or do you prefer Darlie or the kids' Komodo Lion? Hehe. Flavored ones are tasty. Yum!
Oh, and the weblog's layout is really cute. Hehe. I'm glad you finally decided to put a separate layout for the weblog. It makes things so much more nicer!
Why sleeping is risky, you ask? Well, read here!
Oh wow, new layout here and here (and new colors here to match). I love them both, they're so very unique! Oh, and the graphics Lauryn did really rocks. I wish I could do stuffs like those, but I haven't quite figure out how to make a good use of layers... my sense of coordinating sucks.
On second thought, I might just not go to sleep after all. But it's risky.
But is sleeping equally as risky?
Haha. Instead of studying for Biology, I spent my time fixing The Protagonist Boards' new (unlaunched yet) layout so that its cross browser-compatible.
It's okay on NS6. It's okay on IE5.5. Well... it's okay on IE, period. But the older versions of Netscape like NS4+ doesn't support it. Well, too bad. Sucks to be you. Muahahahahaha.
I'll go to sleep now. And wake up to flunk Biology in an hour. Night!
I'm trying to download Netscape right now. It's hard to make websites compatible with both browsers when you can't even test run it.
I can't wait to get tomorrow over with. Biology! *gasps*
While my younger brother is in school, I wonder if I should go ahead and play The Sims. Or tinker around with PSP. Or study Biology. Or watch TV. Or sleep.
Hrm... decisions, decisions.
Come to think of it... fading into nothingness forever after enjoying the rest of my life doesn't sound so bad. After all, today is the first day of the rest of my life.
Everyone is bugging me to sleep. I think they actually enjoy bugging me, because it seems like every time I get online, that's the only thing I hear day in and day out.
She even dubbed me "insane vampy". O.o
I think being awake is so much more enjoyable. I mean, I get to do stuffs, you know? Even if it's just bumming around. At least I'm still living life. When I'm asleep, I'm like the dead. I don't remember dreaming any dreams, I don't do anything. I just fade from the world for a brief period of time. What's the whole meaning of sleeping anyway, when there is nothing to it? I don't see a point either. That's why I prefer to be in the waking world.
But then again, they say that lack of sleep kills more than lack of water. Do you believe that? I don't know. I haven't heard of anyong dying from the lack of sleep, but perhaps in a way it could be true?
Perhaps if I don't sleep, I won't have a life to live.
I want to watch Miss Congeniality! Arrggghhhhh!!
"You make the sims live their lives, but you're not living yours!" - Pei.
Hah, my Flike Boards signature! And it 100% real life!
Oh yeah. My younger brother bought The Sims today. Although it's 1am, he's playing it now on my temporary CPU (I'm using the laptop).
Freak! Hehe.
Haha, I just found out that Panadol is more similiar to Tylenol than Aspirin.
I find dramatism very hilarious. Why do you think soap operas get so many viewers? They're attracted to it. But I'm more attracted to those shows that make fun of soap operas by trying to be soap-opera-like and fake it badly.
So sometimes I tend to exaggerate things when I want to be sarcastic.
It's fun. ;)
You know those drop-down (or pull-down) navigational thingy? I tend to select a place and forget to click "Go!".
I got too used to the auto-load.
I wonder when can I get more CDs. I need more music. The stuffs they play on the radio sucks. I'm serious. It's the same tunes everyday.
I wish I can get Vertical Horizon and Nine Days CDs.
Everyone hates popups, yes. But when you are using a popup as part of your layout design (like my current one, which I only use after popup designs started to die out), you can hardly expect to link to other people's pages with their pages stuck inside that popup.
Read this page. I find it incredibly amusing in some parts. Hehe. Can I borrow that "Best Viewed With" button? :)
Whoa, a born performer! But I guess when one gets onstage as much as she does, they can't help but get used to it and maybe even like it.
I hate makeup. I hate the stage. Okay, I'm frightened of it.
But as they all say, we human tend to despise things that we don't know or understand. And I'm just another member of the Homo sapiens.
Everyone hates ICQ. The security sucks and it has tons of loopholes. Everyone prefers AIM (the only decent thing that came out of AOL). I'm just not used to it.
But mainly, most of my friends are in ICQ. Don't they understand?
Hmm... Nelly Furtado's I'm Like A Bird? I agree with you.
Must be the body or something. I've never seen her pictures or anything, but I cannot tolerate her song. I heard a few guys commenting on how hot she is though.
Do I care? No.
Oh, he has me featured on his site! :)
I demand her to update her weblog! I mean, if she isn't going to keep me entertained, who will?
>:O
My my, your teachers really seem to care a lot about your well-being. My teachers wouldn't even give a damn about where I am if I'm absent for one whole week.
But it just makes it hard to skip school, huh? ;)
I'm having a "SHOUTING" conversation with one of my ICQ buddies. He's using all the caps and stuffs, so I replied with all the caps (although he claimed that it was because of his work that he's using a lot of caps).
He started it!
Hehehehe... I just read the chatlog for #protagonist that Evan uploaded, and it had me rolling around laughing like I'm some insane psycho. Good thing everyone was in the living room watching TV then. Um... I've leave all the details out. You so don't want to know what has happened.
Poor Lele. *huggles* Hope you actually have a good night's sleep. :)
New layout here.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... I'm dead meat!!!
I've been flipping through the Physics book the whole day and just a few minutes ago I found out that we're actually testing on Chemistry tomorrow! Ah, fuck, and I hadn't even touched Modern Mathematics yet! Yeah, we're testing on that too, tomorrow.
Ugh, no sleeping tonight. How horrifying. But better panda-eyes than an F in exam. :'(
Muahahahaha... I'm back with chocolates! I ran out just to get myself some chocolates... jeez, I'm addicted.
Did you realize something? It's morning, and I'm blogging, and it's Sunday.
No school today!
DigitalRice is down.
Um... yeah, you'd think I'd be free of freeservers now that I don't really reside there anymore, but I happen to have all my graphic files there.
Do you have the confidence to do whatever you want?
I seem to have been blogging for quite some time... don't you wonder when I sleep? ;)
But this time, just blame it on Evan. He shouldn't have shown me the webcam shot of the chocolates he bought. Now I'm patiently waiting for the stores to open so that I can go chocolate-shopping!
Oh yeah. Feli (and everyone else who had shown concern about it), thanks for being concerned about me. I guess it just comes with the territory of online journalling. Almost anyone can stumble into my diary.
Feli gave me a link to The Gripe. Naturally, the title reminded me of The Ranting Chick, which I often visited for updates and rants. And although Julie has a more witty style of writing, Tym also writes quite interestingly. And quite sarcastically.
I suppose there is not supposed to be a comparison at all since they're both very unlike each other. But it's just the title that brought it to mind. Heh.
The laptop is really slow at the moment; it shows stuffs I've typed like 30 seconds later... and I hate it when it acts up this way. Ugh!
I feel really lost here.
I'll try not to panic now that I found out 5 people got to my diary by finding for "Lee Pei Vern". And one searched for "Pei Vern", and another searched for "Pei Vern Kemaman".
AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay, I'm freaked. I never thought someone would even searched for "Kemaman".
It seems like there's a lot of people with obsession for cows. Not only Jayne... Sookie too. And Sarah.
And talking about cows, I just saw the cutest beanie baby cow yesterday night. Ugh, I want it!
Umm... exactly. But perhaps it's not only commonly used as a painkiller, it's also used in a placebo method. =P You know, like when you think it will cure something, it will cure it through your belief in it and not the ability of the drug to cure it.
Like you. ;)
I used to play jumprope all the time too, until my teachers banned it when I was in Primary 4 (aged 10). And yes, it's a habit, but they don't need to check for it! I think that's such a stupid routine to make.
Sometimes I feel the need to be nice to everyone, and I find that such a chore. I can be really bitchy and rude, yes, but most of the times that don't happen unless you are bitchy and rude yourself, or you had pissed me off serioudly. But I know myself that I wouldn't want someone being mean to me, and as we all know what goes around comes around.
And constantly, I can't stand looking at people being mean to each other. =/
Oh, I got a mouse radio that is just totally cute! Too bad the reception here is just lousy. But I'll be able to take it travelling should I need it. Hehe.
I have the freakiest urge a couple of days ago to cut my bangs. It had been years since I have bangs over my forehead... I normally wear them swept to the side so that it looks bang-less. Since... when I was 11 or 12. Or something. Probably younger, but I can't really remember right now.
But for the past few days I look at my reflection in the mirror and took out a few locks of hair and made them tumble to the front, over my forehead. And I had wanted to have them cut. Which is weird. I don't want to have bangs. I don't know where that came from.
Probably a desire for a change, however small it is.
I think navel piercings looks really cool, but I'm never going to be gutsy enough to get one. And I heard that taking care of a navel piercing is a total bitch.
Besides, my parents will kill me. They aren't even ever going to let me get multiple ear-piercing, not even for just a short while or to try it out. At the moment, I haven't even have my ears pierced. Nope, no earrings! No worries, no problems.
I'm 72.7% sexually pure and 27.3% sexually corrupted according to this purity test for virgins.
Chin How brought back for me a red and black Korean kimono (or so he claimed). I have no idea how a Korean kimono looks like. If you have a picture, send it over, I'd like to see it!
But I love traditional clothing. They look so nice and elegant, in their own way. And oh-so-demure. Not to mention they each have their own story behind and a spectacular design, unlike modern clothing that basically involves the less fabric, the better. =P Now, if only I can collect traditional clothings. ;) But I shouldn't talk that much since I've never even bought or worn a Chinese cheong sam. I have, however, worn the Malay baju kurung once. Yes, in public. *blushes*
Even with all this talk, I don't think I can ever suck up the guts to wear traditional clothings in public. Unless it's for some performances onstage, of course. Else people would stare at you like you're some freak or something.
Kig crashed my laptop earlier by simply IM-ing me through AIM. First AIM crashed, then followed by IE, then I got disconnected, and ICQ crashed. After that, it wasn't enough, so Explorer crashed as well, causing the Windows to hang, so I had no choice but to reboot.
Um... hehe. I'm wondering why it ended up in my referral counter.
For myself, I was thinking more on the side of living in dorms for the first year. Renting an apartment with a couple of friends would come later if I really cannot stand living on campus.
But then again, I don't even know what I'm going to do with my future.
Yeah, I know, everyone's saying that I should eat Panadols when I get fevers and headaches, but I never do. But Panadols can cure tiredness? I never knew that.
Oh God, that's where you're wrong! They can check. I remember those times when the girls are told to assemble in the school hall, and the women teachers would check for black bras and underwear. Thank goodness I was never subjected to these "spotchecks". They only checked the Malay girls so far. They checked us non-Muslim girls whether we were wearing shorts or petticoats underneath our skirts.
And here I was thinking that my school is just plain weird.
I'm finished with Memoirs of a Geisha already! Whoa, looks like I'm improving on my reading speed. I mean, when you haven't read for a long time, you tend to slack off. Look what happened with The Witching Hour. It took me more than one month to finish that book, when in the past I could've finished it in one seating (yes, I'm horrifying like that). I only managed to finish it when I sped up on my reading at the 2nd half.
Well... I think me being pretty sick for the past three days do have something to do with it. I'm not used to being listless and all, so I just stayed in bed and read a lot. I didn't even go online that much.
Now I wonder what else to do.
I probably should've said this sooner, but Jayne's Doodlebox is really cute! Hehe.
It's illegal to walk out of the house without wearing an underwear? Are you sure? Hahahahaha... whoever can think up that kind of stupid rules... it's like telling people it's illegal to eat lunch before noon or something!
Haha, that didn't quite help much since I can't get a POP3 email from Acid-Stars.Com.
I'll live, for now. But I'm going POP3 email hunting.
Whoa, I managed to stay away the whole day!
Well, that's not really a feat if you know what I had been doing the whole day. After school, I came home early by half an hour and discussed with my brothers and mother about something to do with C&P. Then I went back to my room and read till I fell asleep because I was still feeling really sick. Didn't even wake up for dinner. Woke up at 9pm, ate some rice that my brother bought for me and didn't managed to finish it because I had no appetite. Read some more. Watched Friends. Read until the words begin to blur in front of me.
Then I got online.
I registered at Evan's boards! Hehe. Now, if only I can get around to posting in all the message boards I registered at.
Chin How brought back a lot of books that he had bought in India. He's hungry for books too. Hehe. Most of them looks really worn out... and he hadn't been there for half a year yet!
But at least I have something to read now. I'm on Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden.
They thought my March 13th entry was hilarious. Well... I didn't jump on any guys yet!!
Hate SoftHome. Yes, that's it. Hate. I had my suspicions confirmed... they were deleting my mails!!!
Anyone has a good free POP mail service to tell me about?
Whee! My brother is finally back at yesterday 4am!
Crazy guy. Sheesh. He didn't even think of calling back home to tell us that he's still alive. Mom was worrying like crazy. We even wondered if we should call the police and make a report on a missing person. But since this is Chin How, and Chin How is irresponsible to do these stuffs, we didn't.
*ahem* Is someone trying to hint something here?
Ugh, can someone be too tired to go to sleep? I think that's happening to me.
Haha, I just realized something. Kirsteen's links to Tiffany and my site is switched! If you click on Tiffany's name, you get to my site, but if you click on my name, you end up in Tiffany's site!
Evan is hosting guestbooks! ;)
My major exams for the year...
| Exam | Date | | OTI 1 | 19 MAR - 22 MAR 2001 | | OTI 2 | 22 JUL - 26 JUL 2001 | | SPM Trial | 26 AUG - 6 SEP 2001 | | OTI 3 | 14 OCT - 18 OCT 2001 |
And after that is... SPM!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... SPM starts on November 5th, methinks. Right? I forgot. Haha.
I'm kinda worried that getting on people's nerves is beginning to be one of my many tendancies... I just cussed at a guy today for cussing at my friend. I never cuss out loud. Never.
But then again, the guy I cussed at is Seng Kiat. Big deal.
I should really get off my lazy butt and design a decent layout for my poor neglected guestbook. Hehe, I've been the one neglecting it, I guess. I've been procrastinating ever since I first got Megabook, which is ages ago!
Must... make... a... layout!
I upgraded my guestbook to Megabook v2.0 a couple of minutes ago, and it works perfectly okay! I mean, nothing drastic happened... so if you've been worrying whether you should upgrade your guestbook or not, go for it! Heh. Although it doesn't seem to have much differences, it doesn't take hours of your time either.
Besides, I like the admin page. ;)
Here's the features for Megabook v2.0.
Major Updates
- New Administration Layout
- little easier to use and understand
- Password Encryption
- protects your guestbook more powerfully
- Database Protection
- no more corrupted entries
- Page Listing
- More Modifiable Layout
- ICQ Field
- Custom E-Mail to Signers
- Preview Entries
- Filled Out Wrong/Preview Layouts
- Time Zone Offset
- Different Time/Date Stamps
- Admin Reply Field
Other Enhancements
- Alternating Colors for Entries
- Banning an IP will ban from administration area also
- Ban button added to view logged IP
- Can now Ban subdomains ie. 24.125.* or 24.125.25.*
- Can add a link to entry layout to jump to modifying the entry
- Forget your password? No problem. Added reset password method
Shit... where the heck is my brother?!
I can't help worrying, you know. I know I'm just being a worrywart, but... who wouldn't worry? He hadn't emailed me again either.
Chin How emailed me a couple of days back telling me that he'd be back in Malaysia on the 12th. I emailed him back telling him to call our parents to arrange his transport home from the airport. And he called Mom on the 11th, confirming his flights and stuffs. We waited since then. Yet now it already is the 13th and there's still no news about him.
I wonder what happened?
Been branded that since I was 10. But I didn't take offense in it, of course. I have no idea why, but I'm proud of being able to speak both English and Mandarin fluently (okay, pretty much fluently), and I'm not about to supress my speech in any languages just because they call me names.
Look at the bright side, they're just jealous! *grins*
No, I haven't been neglecting the weblog. I haven't been online. Too mentally tired to do that.
And besides, I was a little freaked because I couldn't log on just now. I thought somebody changed the password or something without my notice. For example, my brother or my dad who thinks that they should clamp a control onto my online time.
Can you believe that someone still think people in Terengganu live in treehouses? Ooh yes, and we have satellite TV in the treehouse too. And also, our shopping complexes are on the trees too! And we get to places by swinging on the vines! *sarcasm*
Irrate.Net has been down for ages! I guess that means Stale needs a new home. Hehe, and while we're stuck homeless, we're still blogging like crazy.
Moving is always hard. Hrm.
I watched What Women Want today. It's... okay. Not something that really catches my attention, but I was just looking for a way to waste time.
Oh, and by the way, it's his birthday today! Hehe, he turns 20 today. Whoa, he's out of the teenage world now...
Happy 20th Birthday!
I hate Ling. She has a pentacle pendant! >:O And I haven't even seen one in real life yet, let alone buy one... my guess if I'm ever going to acquire one of them, it will have to be through the online world or something. Ugh!
*burns with jealousy*
I've been trying to cut down on my time online and it's working so far. Of course, TMnet contributed by kicking me offline every 5 seconds and sooner or later, one is bound to get frustrated and don't bother to try anymore.
Talking about that, can one really know what kind of accent they have?
Hmm... I was branded banana girl too for speaking English (though I also speak Mandarin, but my fluency is definitely towards English). It's even worse here because practically nobody speaks English except for my crowd of friends whom I've known since primary school.
The conditions of a rural place is really annoying.
I'm kinda surpised how she got to my site. But then again, a lot of site trackers are pretty screwed up these days. *cough* Nedstat *cough*
Hi anyway! ;)
Ooohh... new layout at Iritabilita.Net! Um, yeah, I like this one better than the previous one. Blue, pink, and white makes a really cute picture.
And it's simple too. Just the way I like it. ;)
How amazing it is that less than 3 hours ago I was complaining about Add Math tuition, now I'm pretty glad I went. I don't know why... nothing special happened and I haven't grown to like Add Math any better. I'm also still bad at it and still doens't practice it. But something about going to Add Math tuition now appeals to me.
Maybe it's because, finally for the first time since I entered secondary school, for the first time since I lapsed into a "I don't care" mode that was going to last for years, I'm interested in learning and conquering a subject.
Look out world, Pei is back!
Fucking Add Math tuition. Augh. I don't even have time to rest from school! Three days a week I get home late, wash up, eat lunch, and rush over to Add Math or Physics tuition. It's so friggin' frustrating, I tell you. I need a short rest from books, and I can't even have that.
Arrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
And if you read that previous post, you'd find that it can be interpreted into a dirty message if you have that twisted a mind.
Blogger is screwing up all my posts. I had thought for a moment there that I had lost yet another post, but then as I scrolled down, I realized that my post is down there when it should've been at the topmost position.
It had just replaced one of my old post with the new one! Fucking Blogger.
The Christmas Cookie Wrapped SamplerŪ Yankee Candle I got from Le isn't melted or anything. It's crushed. :(
Stupid airmail.
I think I'm cursed to never have a permanent home on the web. At least not a permanent home address either. I mean, look at me. How many times have I changed my address in the past year?
http://altern.org/peivern
http://scout.port5.com
http://waterfallen.com/pei
http://digitalrice.com/prankster
And going to http://goddess.h-y-p-h-e-n-s.net soon.
By the way, I'm so crazy, free, and addicted that I'm one of the four people who made over 1000 posts at The Protagonist Boards. My title is now simply Goddess.
Talking about bewitching, I've finally finished Anne Rice's The Witching Hour yesterday night. It makes me hungry for more Anne Rice books.
You know, now it feels weird without a book in pending to be read.
I'm still dreaming of the darned pendant. I still want it. I still love it.
I think it has me under its spell. How bewitching.
I got Le's bomb today! Well, a few moment ago, actually.
I don't hear any suspicious ticking. Other than my watch, that is. Does that mean I'm safe to open it, or what?
Hrm... while typing in all kinds of domain names out of sheer boredom, I came across this site which sells Wiccan and pagan stuffs. The silver pentagram pendants are cute. I'd like the 8th one.
I can't buy it though, I don't have a credit card to spend with. And I can't ask from my parents cause they would like to know what I'm buying and would freak if they think I'm involved in paganism. No other reason than the common believe in the stereotype. People have this warped view of it. And from there probably the news would spread until my grandparents and extended family, who will all freak as well, and one day I'll be disowned or something drastic. Oh well.
But I like that pendent. I really, really do.
Umm... the only word I always write using the calculator is "BOGEL". That's 73608 and turn the calculator around.
It means "naked".
I see myself as this meanie who makes fun of people who asks for "a/s/l". I don't like people asking that. Most of the times they're people who wants to seek for some opposite sex companion.
No thanks.
I was wondering what the hell was it until Samantha told me. She can see the ads.
For once, I'm glad my laptop is screwed up. Haha!
Ughness. When did ICQ start having ads under each of their message box? This is fucking insane!
Although I only see "ICQAteBrowser Version 1.0". That's the same thing I get when I click on "New! ICQ SMS!" Did I download some weird hack and have forgotten about it, or am I supposed to download some plug-in to view those stuffs?
I seem to have lost a few posts. Weird. Is the "lost posts" syndrome finally catching up with my weblog now?
Hmm... I wonder if I should wait for my parents to come back so that we can have dinner later. But there is a possibility that they would eat dinner at Kuantan, thus leaving me starve at home. Hrm.
I haven't gotten anything to eat yet. I did eat a few pieces of Pringles, but I'm sick of it now.
Last decent meal: Lunch. approx. 12.30pm yesterday (28 hours ago).
I'm so hungry right now I can practically be a cannibal already. Too bad there isn't anyone around the house for me to eat up. Everyone else is in Kuantan.
I am 42% addicted to the net!
You are an average on-line user. You may surf the Web a bit too long at times, but you have control over your usage.
Well, actually, I think I'm an obsessive user, more than some. Just that my grades don't suffer much because of it. And yes, I can stop going online if I want to, but why would I want to?
Ahhh... evil! Hehehe... I don't think any of my schoolmates know anything about my website... at least as far as I remember, none of them know. And none of them made it known that they know. I don't give it out and they don't care enough to ask. Well, some did, and I only give it to those who I don't know very well and would not care enough about me to spread horrible rumors.
What do you mean, I don't count? >:O I can be really evil, you know! Well, according to Tiffany, I wield a bloodied parang (now, don't you wonder where it got bloodied? I must've used it before! *gasps*). I also told Samantha that I aspire to be a serial killer.
Ohhh... Freddie Krueger of Elm's Street! I loved that movie! Hehehe... I've only seen it once or twice my whole life though. Does anyone still see it around nowadays?
It's hard to find old movies here.
Haha, I didn't realize you can actually tell your personality by your breasts! What on Earth is going on in the World Wide Web these days?
I'm such a nutcase. I actually enjoy looking at other people's 404 errors. Yes, I just sat there and read them. Heh.
I'm insane.
My stalker? Hrm, he doesn't give out much information about himself. But then again, which stalker ever does? I wonder if he stalks this weblog too. It's a possibility. I'm not gonna underestimate anyone. ;)
If you think getting stalked or getting threats is interesting, I would gladly give you the experience. ;)
So I'm setting a few of my friends to stalk you down now. Muahahahahaha. Be careful.
I never met any private-schooled guys, so I figure you would have more points than I do anyway. Was there ever a winner? Heh. I thought it was more of a discussion than a debate. But don't be too biased towards public-schooled guys, they're not all that clean cut either. ;)
I should know, I've been studying with them all my life.
I think there was a Freddy the Frog. Only that I don't know if it were part of a song, a cartoon, or what. I'm leaning more to the cartoon option though.
Hehe, I know you have a journal too. But some other girls I know get stalked online occasionally. Oh, and someone threatened to stalk me down too.
Only that I have no idea is that meant in real life or online.
I have school today. Damn.
And Sookie has a new layout that's made of entirely black and white. I know that is one style I can never adopt, as much styles as I change in making layouts. She seems to be able to adopt all kinds of styles and change with every layout. I suck. She rocks.
And that's the way life is. :)
Oh, did I tell you yet that Kirsteen moved to Freespeech.Org? Yeah, she did.
Now you know. :)
I've finally made a conclusion: girls with journal sites get stalked a lot.
It's sweet that my elder brother worry about me being in Form Five and having SPM this year and telling me to study hard and go to sleep... but I do have stuffs to do at the moment.
During my one day stay at Genting Highlands, I was bored to hell since I couldn't do anything and couldn't get online to waste away my time. And guess what I did?
More Than Words - 1.21MB
(originally by Extreme, partially resung by Pei)
Sayin' "I love you" is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I don't want you not to say but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
Cause I already know
I'm back.
Bet ya didn't realize I was gone. ;)
The fucked up thing is that I've been trying to connect to the net for millions of times already, but after a few minutes it would disconnects me. I hate it. Especially now when I have to do something important. I have a friggin' job to do!
Why do I feel as if the world is trying to play a cruel trick on me? Like everyone's in one big conspiracy to stop Pei from getting some peace of mind, even for one moment.
But then again, maybe life is just one whole cruel trick anyway.
When something goes wrong, it's Pei Vern's fault. When something doesn't work out, it's Pei Vern's fault. When problem arises, it's Pei Vern's fault.
I'm beginning to tire of all this.
Come to think of it, my dad does love to spend on those electrical gadgets. We hardly spend money on anything else other than those. We seem to save on the necessary items and spend on the luxury items. Weird?
Hehe. It's fun tinkering with those stuffs though.
After weeks and weeks of agonizing over the stupid RM500 (approx.) external CD-ROM that my father bought for the laptop that didn't seem to work after the first time of installing it, I finally got it to work again. And now, I can once again listen to my darling MP3s that I had missed so much. And install all those programs that I needed.
Whoa. I think I should go out and celebrate!
I have been disconnected for 5 times the last 10 minutes. Do you call that unstable connection, or do you call that not my money's worth?
The graphic on the top is exactly the graphic I had admired at Star's domain. I loved that layout at Star's. How could she do that, just rob it away? That is just so lame, and it does not suit for a white background layout. And eww, it's in BMP format and took ages to load.
Ugh, people these days!
I need to find a new keyboard, fast. Jeez, this one has sticky keys! Sometimes I practically pound on the keys for them to type out the letters. Argh. I wonder how I lived with it for so many months without tossing this thing out of the window.
I don't really post much at BLOGGED because I'm afraid I might be posting crap. Heh. I'm known for crapping a lot (most of the times, actually), and heck, I don't want to mess up someone else's weblog, you know?
What's even worse than that was for that very brief moment before I turned the fan off so that I can replace the cover, I had stared at the spinning fan in deep facination like I was in a trance of some sort. I couldn't avert my eyes. And a flashing thought has passed my mind.
I had an urge to poke my finger right into the spinning fan. And as I lengthen my arm to pull the strings that will turn it off, my arm wavered a little before finally clutching to the rope.
Eek. What would've happened if I really did that? I don't know why I get these thoughts. Ugh. They're driving me out of my mind.
Haha, you would believe what just happened. I was trying to switch the position of the fan, and suddenly the cover popped out while that thing is still spinning! I thought the next thing was going to happen was the spinning part of the fan is going to fly out and kill me. And then I'd be falling backwards and lie bleeding to death on the floor with my clothes soaked in my own blood. And imagine how painful that would be.
Heh. I'm so morbid.
Darn, it's really warm here. I'm sweating on the back of my neck, and my hair is down. Hehe, that would figure, wouldn't it? I'm too lazy to tie it up.
*grabs a chair, stands on it, and turn on the fan hanging on the wall*
Ahhh...
My dad gave me an old CPU to work with until my own CPU reappears. Well... this will work, but I'm still lost. I don't have my things with me.
Is it just me or is there a horizontal scrollbar here? O.o
Frankly, everyone wants me to start getting my act together instead of acting like I am now. But this isn't acting, you know. I can't just switch sides that easily. I'm not born with that ability.
Oh well. Let's hope things get better soon.
Everything seems to set me off lately. Serious things, trival things, silly things, etc etc etc. And the fact that everything seems to make me mad is making me mad.
How strange this world can be.
Pc Partner still hasn't given me back my CPU yet. It has been officially one month since my CPU disappeared. And I can sense my father growing impatient with me for bugging him to bug the PC technicians to return my CPU... well, I have to be pretty thick not to realize that. Argh argh. How I hate them. Hate hate hate. I think they think I have nothing better to do then sit around on my ass and surf the net, when I need my CPU for so many other things!!! I have so many projects lined up to do, and all of them are on the to-do list waiting for my CPU to come home so that I can start with it.
All of my projects involves computer and most of them involves websites, graphics, and word-processing. How I hate the PC technicians. They can all just go to Hell for denying me my CPU. >:O
Ugh. I'm not in too good a mood. I'll keep silent.
Okay, after everyone's consistent bugging, I'll move the darned weblog. Satisfied?
Grr. I don't plan to until I launch the new version of the site and permanently (hopefully) reside at Ling's domain. I'd feel really guilty taking up the space when I haven't even begin to move in yet.
Why did everyone has to make me?
Argh, I've had enough. Sorry, Le, I can't blog all that much. I'm too tired, too depressed, and too... whatever. I don't know what the fuck is up with me, but if anyone else know, kindly tell me.
Sigh.
You know, lately I've been feeling really lost and depressed, I just want to be isolated. Well, not really. I want... I don't really know what I want. But I know I need something, and that something may be not that I want because at this moment, my desire is to sink into a pool of darkness and never emerge again.
That just sounds so facinating to me. Maybe I should try it out. Dying young kinda appeal to me now, because I don't want to end up old and gray and nothing to do but watch life pass me by. Which is technically what I'm doing now.
I feel worthless.
The result of my not being my usual self is effecting pretty heavily on my surroundings and stuffs. I haven't been feeling chatty enough to post a lot at all the message boards, the team weblogs, and even my diary sound like a log of some depressed chick full of teen angst. I feel so out of place with everyone in Stale, so I haven't been talking too much in there either. And as for message boards... I haven't been visiting them. And... ugh, I feel like an idiot.
Well, maybe I am. Maybe I really, really am. And I don't see any use to cloud my eyes anymore.
I hate Scribble.Nu. It's always down. Argh!
But I'm kinda sleepy now. Argh! >:O
I'm supposed to be researching for Mimosa pudica and all the information related to it. Unfortunately, I began a search without knowing the name in English or its full Latin name (I only remembered as far as Mimosa...). I only knew... the name in Malay, which is semalu.
Haha. I forgot that I was supposed to research until a few moments ago. Then I remembered, and asked everyone online whether they knew the name of the plant. Finally someone tells me. *mwah*
I'm saved!
I've been away for a long time... anyone missed me? Hehehe. Yeah, I'm thick. So what? ;)
Oh crap. I'm supposed to be up by 6am and I still hadn't slept yet. What the hell am I doing to myself? I think I'm going to have permanent "panda eyes".
Um... this site is pretty. I love that graphic. How come I can never create anything like that? You people just make me jealous. Sigh.
But what does it has to do with... whatever it has to do with? Ah, wait, I'm confusing myself.
Forget it. :P
Sigh. Some people has nothing better to do with their time nowadays. Miserable little twerps who are too chicken to use their own names and prefers to put the blame on someone else. Hrm.
Cheer up, Sooks. *hugs*
Funny. The more water I drink, the more dehydrated I become. Isn't it supposed to be the other way around?
Yep, mIRC hates me. Every time I am connected to the server, I get disconnected from the net. How twisted is that?
It's been two or three days. Sigh.
I checked my referral today, and to my surprise I saw a referral from http://www.the-protagonist.net/jordan. I checked over, and it was a 404 error, but Lauryn has customized the 404 and it has links pointed to all the hostees. So I suppose that's where he or she clicked to my site.
This is mad funny. Jordan, looks like your secret admirer hasn't stopped stalking you yet!
Haha, Samantha, the breast thing is hella funny. Hilarious, even. Even though it's a Christianity site, for some reason I think it's making fun of the Bible when I saw that phrase. Something like women must always please men and all that crap. When I first saw your post on it in your weblog, I thought it was some sarcastic statement made by someone.
Okay, maybe it is degrading to women and what's more insulting it's written by a woman too, but you know what, it degrades men too! ;)
Just shows that men only wants breasts. *rolls eyes* But I just don't get why we women would actually encourage them to keep on thinking that way by getting implants and all that. Hmph! I think it's past time they realize that not all women are made like a venus. And those who are are just out of their reach. So there! Muahahahahahaha.
I'm never gonna be a Christian, and I'm never gonna believe in the bible (at least not 100%, some of the things does makes sense in same ways). These people scares me too much.
I know, I said I was freaked at H-Y-P-H-E-N-S.net Ikonboard at first because it has so many forums... but then I went to i.BERRY and it felt weird to have so little forums to post in, as if it were not enough.
Haha, I'm still most used to The Protagonist Boards.
Ugh. Earlier when Steph messaged me, I got disconnected from the net and couldn't connect again.
Sorry Steph. :(
I'm just gonna go offline and read something. I'm slacking in that department. Doesn't hurt to catch up a bit. Doesn't hurt to take a break from the net.
Now, if only the brain will stop hurting.
Oh, look! Yet another Malaysian with a great-looking personal site! Haha, no, I'm not a patriot. I just think it's so rare to find a Malaysian that makes websites nowadays... ;) Although he does lack of a couple of back buttons, and have a few 404 errors. The design is okay though, right?
Headache. Again. The dull throbbing in my head. I don't know why it's back. Not now. Of all the times to come back and hurt me, not now.
I wish it to be gone.
Wow. She linked me, twice. Both my diary and my site. And she even blogged about me. And signed my guestbook.
Thanks, Samantha. :)
Just let me wallow in my self-pity for now.
Ah, okay, some jerk is messaging me asking me who I am. Erm... wait a minute there. He was the one who added me to his contact list back when the article in Purple Sofa came out. And being in the nice mood I was in, I let him add me.
And now he's asking me who I am? Oh, great. Just great. I think I'll just delete him, and ignore him. What the heck, it's not like it's going to hurt him. Muahahahahahahaha. I'm so mean.
But fuck, I'm not in the mood to deal with a jerk right now. An unknown jerk at that too. Just leave me alone. Don't anyone take notice of my status, N/A? Do anyone even know what the hell that means? It's Not Available. So just fucking leave me alone, jerk.
LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
I'm on N/A mode on ICQ right now. Don't bother to message me or anything, because it's very likely I won't reply. I'm not in the mood for small talk.
Um, yeah, reading back today's entry that I just uploaded a few moments ago, I'm fucking crying right now. I can't help it.
This just sucks.
Stephanie has a pretty new layout for her weblog. I like this better than the last one. For some reason, I've been liking a lot of striking colors lately.
Ugh, I just got home, and I am friggin' tired. And it's not even 9pm yet. And I'm mad at a certain someone.
Ugh.
I can't believe how one can be stalked by a lone sock around campus. Le must be a pretty special person to get to experience these stuffs. Haha.
Sometimes a simple personal email can bring up my spirits, you know. Just call in to say hi. Or something. For some reason, a personal email is at times better than a "Hi!" through ICQ or AIM.
A snail mail is even better. ;)
I'm good at ignoring people, so there!
*coughs* I think I've been promising too many people miniature paintings. Haha! *ahem* I'll do them, don't worry. I just don't know when they'll be finished, so don't wait up for it yet!
Fuck... Blogger's being a whore again! It doesn't let me delete my posts! Yuckers... it's acting like GreyMatter!
Jordan wanted me to post something about Lele. Hrm? Oh, you mean her obsession with big breasts? ;)
Josie rocks. But while shifting through her site, I'm wondering... is this true? There's actually spambots that get email address from our sites and spamming us with it?
Ugh. Enlightened, but worried. Oh wells.
Hehehe... yes, the secret is finally revealed: I found Zhi Ling's site (back then it was at Eccentrica.Org or something like that) from Lauryn's site (which was in Freespeech.Org... right?). That was back in 1998. And I was a little bit in a daring mood that day to email Zhi Ling, and then got to know her through ICQ.
Not like that's such a secret anyway. Hehe. It just never came up in the conversation.
My younger brother actually bought Mariah Carey's #1's album... when I already have it since a year ago! Augh!
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