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I think half of my archives are gone. I'd better fix it fast.
Err... I finally found out why half the world can't access to my website properly. Heh. It's because only Internet Explorer 5.5 supports the combination of DHTML scripts I used in there. As for others... well, even IE5 doesn't work. I'm using my school's computer, and it's IE5. That's how I know.
Funny. =Þ
This is deadly serious, so don't ignore it. Several new viruses have been discovered and are wreaking havoc throughout the national system. Beware of...
THE AL GORE Virus.... (Causes your computer to just keep counting and
counting)
THE CLINTON Virus.... (Gives you a 7-Inch Hard Drive with NO memory)
THE BOB DOLE (aka: VIAGRA) virus... (Makes a new hard drive out of an old floppy)
THE LEWINSKY virus... (Sucks all the memory out of your computer, then Emails everyone about what it did)
THE RONALD REAGAN virus.... (Saves your data, but forgets where it is stored)
THE MIKE TYSON virus.... (Quits after two bytes)
THE OPRAH WINFREY virus.... (Your 300mb hard drive shrinks to 100mb, then slowly expands to destabilize around 200mb)
THE JACK KEVORKIAN virus... (Deletes all old files)
THE ELLEN DEGENERES virus... (Disks can no longer be inserted)
THE PROZAC virus... (Totally screws up your RAM, but your processor doesn't care)
THE JOEY BUTTAFUOCO virus... (Only attacks minor files)
THE ARNOLD SCHWARZENEGGER virus... (Terminates some files, leaves, but will be back)
THE LORENA BOBBITT virus... (Reformats your hard drive into a 3.5 inch floppy, then discards it through Windows)
I was attacked by mosquitoes gallore yesterday morning while I was in school. About 13 or 14 bites. Those black and whites which can bring infect me with dengue fever.
I still feel well, however.
Did the Daylight Savings thingy messed up my weblog timestamp? I had to reset it to an hour earlier because when I was posting at 10pm, it tells me 11pm.
I'm researching on breast cancer. I don't know why either, don't ask me. I just had the sudden idea to look up on it.
Gender: Simply being a woman is the main risk factor for developing breast cancer. Breast cancer can affect men, but this disease is about 100 times more common among women than men.
Oh my gosh, guys get breast cancer too?
Don't worry about that, most of the times I'm blur that way too. In fact, there's a possibility that I'm even worse off. When we came back from KL that day, we stopped by Kuantan to grab something to eat. Pizza Hut. And opposite there was this optical shop called "Berjaya Optik", and I was like, "Since when is there a Berjaya Optik anyway?"
My elder brother looked me odd with that Are you serious? look on his face, and replied, "Two years ago."
To think that I actually go down to Kuantan every week or so.
I don't know why I roll up those chilli sauce packets! *whine whine* I'm a hopeless nutcase. Where on earth did I get that idea to do that anyway? No one in my family or circle of friends ever do that.
On the side note, chilli cheese crackers tastes good.
I feel friggin' tired.
I'm going to sleep now. Or maybe not. I need to read something before I sleep.
But anyway, night.
I wish some people would just let their writing talents shine through. But you can never force a person to do so. Everyone's different, I guess. For example, I just dump everything in a site and... well, basically don't really care whether it's good or not. I've been known to write really boring stuffs. I mean, a blow-by-blow account on how my day went... can it be even more boring than that?
But, you know, I don't mind. I'm not out to impress anyone.
I could've sworn I'm trying to compose an essay on Zhi Ling's guestbook (entry #142). But I admit, half of what I was saying is basically crap. Heh.
I love 25 Minutes by MLTR too. That's one of my favorite songs by them. I think my first ever CD was their Paint My Love - Greatest Hits album.
School starts today. *sighs*
Actually, the next holidays on my list is Hari Raya Haji (otherwise known as Hari Raya Korban, the day the Muslims sacrifice a cow and distribute the beef to the poor), which will last for ten days for me because my principle decided to lengthen it by three days.
Isn't Hari Raya Haji for the whole of Malaysia?
Come to think of it, normally Hari Raya Haji holidays doesn't last that long. Hmm? Whatever happened... oh yeah, my guess is that the holiday is supposed to last for two days, but then when you add three days to it, it becomes five days which is basically one whole school week. Two days of weekends at the front and two days of weekends at the back...
A total of ten days. Wow. It's somewhat like Chinese New Year holidays, we got ten days of it too. It's not exactly long enough for me to enjoy, but... I take what I can get. It's better than just a mere two days.
Oh yeah, I'm one lucky girl. Heh.
DigitalRice is still down. Jeez.
It had been the whole friggin' day.
On the side note, I heard Lai Yen on Hitz FM today morning, about 11.30am. She was making a dedication to some friends, and I heard Sookie's name mentioned... - January 25th, 2001.
Visit her. I like the font she used for the date and time, it made the blog looks a tad bit futuristic. She just got a domain.
Everyone's getting a domain. Or at least it seems that way.
Okay, you probably think I'm nuts for going through someone's guestbook like that. But DigitalRice is down and I'm bored. Whose guestbook should I haunt next?
If I were you and you're paranoid and you want to save the guestbook entries from being deleted by some accidental server burp, back it up every few weeks or so. Since you're using Megabook, you have full control over it. Just download the "filename.db" file into your hard drive.
I sometimes do that, but most of the times I don't know where I save that file. *sheepish grin*
I just signed Steph's guestbook. And as I went through the archive of her guestbook to look for my last entry, I realized something weird.
Entry #16 (dated January 1) and #41. Notice something similiar? I started out both with "Wheeeeeeeeeee................."
I am so weird sometimes. But I'm still okay because the first entry I wrote in there is the #9, and it didn't start out that way.
Well... I was kinda wrong. Li Chin was in Add Math tuition. But I don't think she was in the mood to poke me awake.
Argh, I'm gonna go get some shut eye before Add Math tuition at 3pm. I don't want to fall asleep in the middle of Add Math tuition. Especially when Li Chin isn't going to be around to poke me awake. =Þ
My gosh. Steph, is this yours? The moment I spot the link on the Hot News page and it brought the name "Stephanie", "16", and the word "sister", I kinda suspected it already.
Hehe.
Pretty. As ungirlish as this may sound, I do not particularly like butterflies (they are, after all, included in the six-legged category). But maybe butterfly soul isn't all that bad.
Blue and beautiful. Exactly.
I keep on wondering when will I be good enough, or as good as. But now I realize that the answer is "maybe never".
She seems to create beauty itself.
Goodness, I'm awake at this time of the day! That's a first.
Muahahahahaha... waiting for my journal entry for January 26th? I'm still awake, and typing. But you've went offline already. *grins*
Read it when you wake up or something. If DigitalRice is nice to me and lets me upload it without freaking out.
I find this so funny. Remember when I told you Ambrosiana made Sims of the chatters at The Protagonist Boards? Haha. That was the outcome of it. =Þ
The first song I heard from Teresa Teng was Yue Liang Tai Piau Wo De Xin. I loved that song. And I know a bunch of people who loves Teresa Teng's songs.
I even have a tape of her videos somewhere.
Err... you take acting classes? Vocal lessons? Wow. Busy, busy girl. That's a whole lot of things to do. How on earth do you keep your schedule straight?
The only non-school-related classes I take is Art. Hehe. Others are just tuitions for the sake of passing SPM.
I don't take divination things seriously, so don't worry. I just think it's pretty amusing. *grins*
Wow, Steph, are you sure? I mean, I went and asked them about the webcam. Haha. I was all so self-assured and everything, and talked with this air of self-confident-ness. And I think the guy was kinda unnerved with that, he was fumbling with everything and kept telling me that he doesn't work there normally, just came here to help out with the store since the one in Megamall is closed for that day.
But anyway, they did sell the webcams without the package. In fact, they had one last one of the portable Intel webcam we both wanted, but I decided to not buy it cause my dad said it might be a demo unit instead of a new one, and it would be really troublesome to come all the way down to KL again just to change a webcam.
Talking about books, I got The Witching Hour by Anne Rice yesterday. I haven't got around to it yet though.
According to one of Lillian Too's books, Rats have the possibility of getting into trouble with the law this year. Hmm... wonder what that means? Hehe.
My guess is that Rats and Snakes aren't the best of friends. =Þ
By the way, I'm invited to blog at Blogged, another team weblog thingy. It's owned by Lauryn. :)
The word is that Zhi Ling has a new layout up. I'm gonna go over and check it out. Hehe.
The Ultimate Personality Test
Hey, Pei, You're A Movie Star!
You're a bright ray of sunshine in an otherwise cold, bleak world. Everyone loves your rosy cheeks and sparkling eyes, and you secretly wonder why you're not famous yet. You're friendly, charming, and great with people (and perky — you'd make a good Christmas elf at Macy's). Happily, your incredible charm means you won't have to sleep your way to the top, unless that's your thing.
You're caring and optimistic. You don't get annoyed with people very easily, and you can handle stressful situations with ease and grace. Being a movie star, you need to look good, and that means spending a lot of time on your appearance. But you're not a snob about possessions — as long as you're wearing the best, most expensive outfit at the party.
At work, you have framed pictures of your friends and family on your desk, along with a couple of cute stuffed animals. You like making your work environment cozy and hospitable. After all, you practically spend more time at work than you do at home, right? You never shy away from asserting your ideas and opinions, and encourage others to do the same.
A hosting offer from Riddle.Nu in my guestbook. Wow.
Look, I found this in my referree statistics. I was surprised because I don't post there. And when I clicked over, I saw that Ambrosiana had blatantly advertised for me for a hosting spot at some domain. Hahahaha... my gosh, my friends are crazy. *grins*
Ugh... my mail is flooded. I'm evil. I deleted all of those that I got from mailing lists. I just can't tackle reading through them anymore, and it's not as if me reading them and not reading them would make any difference.
And I need to type out my journal entries.
Oh my gosh, Steph, why on earth did you buy that Creative Go Plus webcam for RM570? You could've asked me... I could get it for RM450. I just didn't cause I thought it took blurry pictures (one of my net friends has one, and it was blurry).
Okay, I'm just freaking out. Ignore me.
I've been gone for... almost 3 days. And now I'm back.
Oh yeah, I'm back!
It's amazing. It had been raining hard the whole of last week. And also on Sunday and Monday as well. In fact, it was raining so hard that some parts of the roads are too flooded for cars to pass.
For some reason, we were presented with a sunny Chinese New Year Eve and Chinese New Year. :)
Well, my last night with Internet access for this week. I'm leaving Kuantan for KL tomorrow early morning. Or rather, today early morning, if you want to look at it that way.
From then on, I'm only contactable by the cellphone. But I think my cellphone's damn twisted. The reception is a little bit nuts.
Well, it's already the second day of Chinese New Year. Jeez, time fly by really fast, doesn't it?
This very annoying guy is pestering for my photo through ICQ. I feel like killing someone. Rawr.
If he send another message my way asking for my photo, I'm gonna start cursing at him and bitching. And it's not nice to curse on the first day of Chinese New Year.
*grins* You're trying to do something like the 2001 New Year thingy? Posting at 12.01AM?
Some times people give two ang pows per family. Some people gives only one.
I've experienced both.
I didn't see any lion dance or played any firecrackers this year either. I miss the spirit of the new year now. Although I'm not celebrating, I'd like to at least see them around.
I heard some firecrackers going off yesterday night though. At... err... 3am. Duh.
You're lucky. I'm not even going to visit any relatives this year, because I'm not celebrating.
But even if I did, I never ever got RM450. The most I ever got for one year was RM300, I guess, and that was a special time since I get to see a lot of relatives I never met before.
Nervous? Does such a word exist? *blurr*
Heh. Don't be, I guess. Or be. Or whatever. Meeting new people had always made me jittery like crazy, but after that KLCC-Genki Sushi-walk around meeting with the others... the nervousness is kinda wearing off. Expect the unexpected. *grins*
The shyness is still around though. And I don't talk much. Ask Sookie or Tiffany.
Happy Chinese New Year!
You know, the term "Black & Blue" reminds me of Backstreet Boys's latest album. And that's what my site is exactly at the moment, black and blue. And white. Hehe.
I just realized not so long ago that my archive page is screwy. Jeez.
I fixed it, though. That's the problem with using too many tables.
By the way, it's not that I don't have ICQ here. My brother uses ICQ too. I just don't have anyone on my list. Message me or something, and I'll add you to the list. I'm always on Invisible right now.
I just got home from the reunion dinner. Hmm... I'll talk about it on tonight's journal entry. Too long to elaborate here. If I can upload it, that is.
The Sims sounds like a really cool game. *grins* Ambrosiana played it, and she made it the Protagonist Sims. This is supposed to be me (the one in the khaki shorts and black top).
Hehe. Ambrosiana is weird.
Oh, I'm a walking contradiction... I talk about feminism, yet I don't know how to do stuffs a girl should know how to do. Like cooking. Washing. Cleaning. Baking. What kind of equality am I looking for? That girls can don't know how to cook, just like guys? That the world should accept a girl who doesn't know how to bake?
Wait a minute. I know how to do those stuffs, I just don't like doing them.
We don't really decorate our house for Chinese New Year... we just clean it out and stuffs. And hang some tang lungs, some ornaments made using ang pow packets, and put up those gorgeous pink cherry blossoms.
My ears hurt when I listen to my walkman (which is what I use to listen to the radio... I'm away from home, remember?). Why? Because for some strange reason, the hole in my ear (whatever you call that?) is especially small, smaller than most people. And when I plug the earphones into my ear, they sorta squeeze in and my ears hurt after half an hour like that.
Ugh. It sucks to be weird.
I'm actually listening to Chinese songs on radio. Hehe. I rarely listen to Chinese songs... I don't know why either. Maybe because I don't really own the Chinese artistes' albums, because I don't know who is who. I don't know how to read their names, unless the names are similiar to mine or is written in English.
But Chinese songs are quite nice to listen to.
I'm looking forward to the Chinese New Year reunion dinner in a few hours. We're going to eat at MS Garden Hotel. Not that every one of my relatives are going to be there... but...
It does mean food. *grins* And a lot of chatter.
I want to experience some happy times again. I miss them. And I want them to come back to me. Come back to me... once again.
I can't believe it, I'm actually doing Add Math practice during Chinese New Year Eve!
I'm desperate for A's. Any A's to get me through exams.
Sigh.
Weird, I can't access to liquid-acid.org. It leads me to this Virtual Server thingy. And I'm like, huh?
Is it a time for all servers to have a sudden, unscheduled reset? So far I already know of three.
The first person to test drive my site was Tiffany. And she practically freaked me out bad when she said there were script errors. I hate those errors... I spent hours fixing them. They can't have errors now!
It worked fine on my computer. But then again, my computer is twisted.
Then it was Zhi Ling. She reported a "fine". Whoa. That was certainly reassuring. *grins* I was panicking like hell there. Of course, I think there's a few browsers doesn't support it. I'm using IE 5.5.
There's benefits (or maybe not "benefits", I was asking for favors, hehe) being on my... err... ICQ list. Hehe.
Actually, Kirsteen, you look kinda Chinese in certain pictures or poses. Or maybe it's just me. Whatever.
No wonder people send you Chinese New Year cards. Hehe.
Look, she's actually alive!
Where the heck have you been, girlie?
Yep, got accepted. Heh. I now officially proclaim myself webring-able!
Err... by the way, Zhi Ling, I think we'd better start working on the dictonary now. Add webring-able into it, as well as onliest.
Great... my brother is kicking me off the computer again. Can we say hogger?
*sighs*
I want Green Day's Warning:. *sighs* I don't think I'm going to have money leftover from the webcam to get it.
But I'm not anymore, am I? Depends if I get accepted to this "exclusive" ring. If I don't, I'm still officially webring-free!
I just applied for Divine Designs. Eh? Don't I dislike applying for webrings and online cliques? Hehehe. I think there's too many of them sometimes. You realize, of course, that my site has no webring codes until a few minutes ago when I added the codes for Divine Design.
I should've started a stamp that says something like, "My site is webring-free."
Happy Chinese New Year everybody!!!
Ahh... Zhi Ling found me out! Hehehehe... and so did Mimi.
I was wondering what username to use one day when I was in my room using the laptop to get online. I was desperate, and I don't want to use peivern as a username anymore. Using pei was too short and they won't accept it. Or was it because someone else already registered it? I have no idea.
Anyway, I looked around, and saw Offspring's Conspiracy of One CD box that I bought back in December. I loved that CD, so I looked at the listings of songs for inspiration. Saw Original Prankster as the 3rd song, and took the name pranskter.
And oh, by the way, I love that song! And I like the directory name I have now. Hehe.
For some reason, everytime I look at Kerry's photo, it reminds me of a kitten. I think it's the playful, naughty grin she wears. Hehe. I think she's cute.
Too bad she's leaving Atomic Kittens. But she's marrying Bryan, so I guess she's not losing much either. At least she's one girl who ended up happily-ever-after, even though I don't believe in fairytales anymore.
Before Zhi Ling mentioned about eating lunch, I wasn't hungry. Now that she mentions it... ergh...
Zhi Ling!!!
Gosh, it's noon and I'm still sleepy. Maybe it's cause I just woke up not so long ago.
I might be meeting with Steph at KL! And we're going webcam shopping!
Yeah, I hate popups. But as I said in the site info page, "This one's... the first one ever to be launched with popups... I normally loathe those things and would avoid them forevermore... but this time, I'd just try it out for once."
Gee, the navigation is supposed to change for some of the links. Others will open a new window.
Look! I moved! Hehehehehe...
I was refered by a new friend who IM-ed me because of my diary. Although I have a bad impression towards sites with pop-up ads (yes, Crosswinds has pop-up ads now), I clicked anyway. First look, I was impressed. The graphics are pretty well done, and I like the color coordination. Hehe.
Then I found out it's a journal site. Cool, I love online journals. But not many catches my attention, I guess. Not because I'm picky, just that I tend to get distracted a lot. Anyway, I proceeded to read the entries. Shifted through a few. Click, click, click.
Okay, I'm hooked.
And it goes into my Favorites folder.
My CPU is back! Yay. With 96MB RAM now... and a USB port, finally.
Hahahaha... yeah, we all know it's the Year of the Snake (Gold/Metal Snake, to be more precise). But someone is going to have the draw the snake, and it probably won't be me. I'm only talented at drawing dragons.
Since dragons is such a popular Chinese symbol anyway... =Þ
Uhh... Sookie? My soon-to-be new URL is http://digitalrice.com/prankster (this will bring you to the coming soon page), not http://prankster.digitalrice.com (this will bring you to an unfound page). DigitalRice doesn't offer subdomains anymore.
Stale has a new layout. At first the red looked kinda odd... I'm not used to seeing websites with red background although Seb also has a red background for his weblog.
But it's fitting for the Chinese New Year theme. Haha... I can't believe that the dragon I drew actually made its debut entry though. Originally it was only black lines on paper... then I scanned it in and edited it. =Þ
The Chinese characters look really cool. Haha. I never would've thought of that idea (I'd probably wonder if half the world actually know what it means...).
Err... it's not a webcam shot (though everyone thinks it is...). I snapped it a few weeks ago with a normal camera and scanned it in. The reason why it's special is because the first thing my brother said when he saw it was, "Are you thinking of killing someone when you snapped that?"
He said I looked like an assassin.
I have no idea why I looked like that. Or what I was thinking. The yellow-orange light probably have something to do with the alien-ness of it (it was shot in the bathroom... the only area in my home that has orange lighting instead of white). Sinister, eh?
Wow, surprise surprise. Dad hadn't dragged me off the computer yet! Normally before midnight he'd call the downstairs phone and order me to go upstairs at once.
This is certainly surprising.
If this weblog goes unupdated for a long time or cannot be accessed anymore, it might be because I've moved here, therefore the weblog would be here.
Don't bother checking now, because it probably wouldn't do you any good. Muahahaha. =Þ
Heh. That's strange. I was holding a looooooong argument with one of my friends, and it was hectic in the way that we're messaging back and forth millions of times.
Something wrong with your ICQ?
On Monday I will be going to Pekan, and stay overnight at Kuantan. Then Wednesday would be Chinese New Year, and probably the next day I would be setting off to... yep, KL.
I need to make a layout for my weblog... but I don't have inspiration.
My CPU is in the shop. My laptop is in the shop. Oh great.
I'm stuck with my dad's computer. And no, I don't have AIM or my ICQ list here either. *sighs* So don't expect me to message anyone tonight. I don't have anyone's UIN at all.
*sighs again*
Sookie, scratch the last URL I gave you. I'd be here instead. And it would be up soon... as soon as I can get the Javascripts working. =Þ
I feel really, really tired right now. I don't know why either.
DigitalRice's FTP is down.
I may be under 18, but this is too funny not to share. =Þ Check out their housecam. Hehe.
Amusing for a while.
When you get involved in love too soon, you'd feel hurt too soon. If you get involved in love a little later, you feel the hurt a little later. No matter at what time, what age, what day... when you fall in love, you're bound to feel the hurt that comes along with it. So if you never fell in love, you'd never feel the hurt.
But then, what are you living for?
That's exactly that I'm asking myself. What am I living for, if I'm never ever going to let go or forget about my past hurts.
You didn't catch me at a good time.
God, I'm having such a headache. Sigh. I guess the site won't be up today after all. And I wanted to get it up so badly.
The irritating thing is that when Blogger starts working, I run into problems with F2S.
Freeservers are very irritating sometimes.
The Grinch Who Stole Chinese New Year
Starring: Lee Pei Vern
Mission: Eat all the mandarin oranges.
Nope, I'm not moving to DigitalRice anymore. F2S is more like it.
The Protagonist Boards has a makeover today and now it's Valentine-themed.
And Lauryn just got a domain.
I found out where I want to move to now. Yep, I created another account with DigitalRice. I find their customer support so fabulous even though I'm not paying. Wow, there's still decent people on Earth.
Eating sardines for lunch at the moment... *smack lips*
Heh. I don't really like eating fish or seafood all that much (save for crabs), but sardines is another exception. They taste yummy!
Or maybe I'm just weird.
After reading the last two or three posts, I've come to the conclusion that I'm in a lousy mood today.
Someone wants me to help with her weblog layout. The problem is that I don't really know how to.
I went to the website, to get a hint of what she wants. The URL forwards to a Geocities site, and there's a broken image and nothing else. I supposed it was a coming soon page because the filename was "coming.html". So I don't really know what she wants from me. But after rereading her email, she doesn't just need help with the layout, she needs "a sweet person whod be able to create me a template with blog codes after me sending a picture of how the layout id like should appear".
I think I need that sweet person too. Anyone out there? =P
And anyway, she asked me a few other questions. Like what programs I use. And what fonts I use for my site. I think I stated those clearly in my site info page. In fact, I said more there than I have to.
It makes me wonder how come people tend to flatter and ask questions without thinking twice or even bother to check it around. Perhaps so that one will get the favor done? I wonder.
I thought when we talk, it's about you and me, not anyone else. Yeah, when you're storytelling, why not. Or when you know me for some time already. So it's kind of annoying how the first time someone (normally young teens who are of the age 12-15) seeks for me to talk with, the first thing they say, right after "Hi" is, "So... do you have a boyfriend?" Is it just because:
a) they can't find anything to talk about.
b) they think I'm interested in talking about boyfriends.
c) they really want to know whether I have juicy gossips.
d) they're just busybodies.
Just to show you how superficial we have become. Li Chin was right. Teenagers really are too darn superficial nowadays.
It kinda looks like we're all blaming our slow Internet connection on Telekom... *grins*
I used to have faith in Jaring because it's the pioneer of Internet Service Providers in Malaysia, and practically the one who is in charge of this whole Internet deal (along with MIMOS, right?). But now TMnet is probably jealous of it and wanted to monopolize everything... it just figures. Just because they have the government's backing, they think they can do anything they want and everyone will accept it.
And our government is no better, talking all those craps.
I'm not surprised that more of the younger generations are a tad bit better at computer-related things than the older generation... mainly because we are exposed to these things at a younger age and we learn gradually from there. Computers aren't exactly a popular thing back in the 80's, right? So it's understandable that way. There are always some who does not fit in this rule though.
Not everyone fits under one rule.
Hmm... I guess I'm lucky I got out of writing Some things are more important than money for my English teacher. But that's just because I've written tons of other essays for her last year, and also, I wrote that essay two years ago for the essay competition. Why would I even bother writing it again?
Looking back, I think my writing really did sucked a lot then, compared to now. Particularly that piece of writing. I remember not being satisfied with it.
Hahaha... it's almost dinnertime and I'm totally stuffed! I mean, I ate lunch at about 2.10pm, and then went for tuition (which only involves sitting around and working out formulas... and half the time I got them wrong anyway). Then when I came back, I immediately head for the fridge downstairs and dug out mandarin oranges. I ate three.
And just a few moments ago, Chin Siang came in and gave me a small pau. And I ate it.
*grins*
Oh wait, I just remembered what stemmed my appetite for mandarin oranges. It gotta be that two pieces of an orange that Ee Lynn gave me today morning in school. Heh.
I'm back from Add Math tuition (in which I don't really understand anything from, by the way), and eating mandarin oranges. I'm at my third so far... and it has only been twenty minutes since I left the tuition center, and perhaps a little over ten minutes since I reached home.
I think I'm addicted.
I'm back... and it seems like everytime I get back from school, I come home with a polka-dotted skirt...
Yeah, the days are just filled with rain. Every single day.
I'm at school now... =Þ
No, I'm not here illegally (although this is personal purpose)... I'm here to do English Society's things... make sure you don't accuse me of stuffs that I didn't do, okay? :)
Nope, I didn't get an email from them. But I'm no longer bothered by it. Hehehehe. This is the net, and in the net, there's a lot of things that I don't care enough for yet to worry so much over... cause my school life is messed right now. Bah.
I love rainy days, but they really, really make my sleepy. And that means it's hard to concentrate in class, because half the time the cold really makes it a perfect temperatute to just conk out right there and then...
Just that sometimes it gets too cold.
Jeez, don't panic now! I think it will be up... although I don't see any poetry section there. =P Maybe they'll create a section for stuffs like that? Like stories and poems and stuffs.
Brrrrr... I just got home from school, and it had been pouring for the last hour. It's cold. *shivers*
Congrats, Steph. Hehehe... well, I've searched the entire site and can't find your poem. Is it up yet? If not, tell me when it is. =Þ
I have decided to move back to a freeserver. I realize that I would feel extremely guilty being at Coloured-Glass.Com since I wasn't even offered a hosting spot there by the original owner, Tish. Oh yeah, I'm feeling guilty all over again. And I know the guilt will always get to me. I'll treasure these last moments of being hosted. Hehe.
Now, if only I can find a decent freeserver.
I'm bored... and no one's online for me to disturb.
My dad's coming back from Hong Kong tonight! Wheeeeee!!!
*dances around*
Actually, I was online from 2pm to 3pm only... and that's about an hour before you posted. Nowadays I'm online at the weirdest times... and besides, I'm always in "Invisible" mode when I'm on ICQ... did you even ask for authorization? *grins*
Only "special" people get to be on the "Visible" list.
I'm making the darn layout now... motivated by the fact that I'm sick and tired of looking at the grayness of my current layout. And I think everyone else is sick of it too.
I'm done, only that now I'm much too lazy to put in the content.
The Offspring's Original Prankster sounds really good. Hehe.
Oh yeah, and one more thing, Steph. You don't even take SPM. And where's the IT in it? And it's not like the PPD had pissed you off badly... rawr.
*jealous jealous*
I cannot afford RM30,000... anyone wants to donate me money? ;)
I go up onto the stage and in front of the audience many, many times. Maybe not as much as you, but still. And at the moment the stage-fright is still one of my weak points. I can't keep my hands from turning cold, my heartbeat from quickening, or even my voice to stop stuttering...
You know what... I'm no longer nervous anymore. I have a feeling that my application has been rejected... for certain reasons. =P And no, it's not because I have an amazingly low self-esteem... it's not that.
I'm psychic. Heh.
Hmm? ASTRO's teen portal? Have I been out of it for so long I don't know what's going on around me anymore... or am I just transported here from Mars? =P
Sounds interesting. I applied, but God knows if I'm going to be accepted. *grins* Carpe Diem! Oh wait, I used that for the Purple Sofa article too... when I agreed to write one. Hehe.
Anyway, anyone else up to it too?
*gasps* Wow... everyone's kind enough to email me just give encouragements for me to go to study at the UK. This is really too cool... I can hardly believe it that so many Malaysians made it there. Hehe... Malaysia Boleh?
Thanks everyone!
I have an idea on what I want to do with my site. But right now I'm too lazy to do so. And it's 3am.
Someone educate me a bit. Out of the 6 Malaysian ISPs, I only know of TMnet, Jaring, Maxis, TIMEnet, ARCnet... is the other Celcom or something?
Gosh, I'd go for ARCnet if only the costs aren't so high. It has a fast connection, but it's 2 cents per minute, excluding phone line charges. Which is like, ouch! Twice of what I'm paying for a sucky connection.
Don't we have a monthly flat rate ISP anywhere?
Sorry to inform you that DigitalRice is down again. It's just too bad, isn't it?
And no, I don't censor my words.
Someone from KL asked me to meet them sometime when I go down there again. Would I dare to meet someone whom I haven't even known for at least a few months? I wonder. Go down to KL. When would that be? Chinese New Year? I don't know. My plans are really messed up right now. All I want to do at the moment is curl up and fall asleep.
Talking about that, it might not be such a bad idea...
If anyone's interested, I'm probably gonna be online tonight starting at 10:30pm or 11:00pm till... I dunno when. But I plan to sleep early this time.
Plan to. Cause I didn't sleep yesterday and I walked around the school laughing and giggling like crazy due to the lack of sleep and that has caused the lack of sanity in my mind.
My God... it's true.
What the fuck is going on with our country? I think we're all going to hell. Fuck IT. There's no way we can get advanced like this. If everyone just turn a deaf ear, shut one eye, and treats this like it's no business of ours, we're all going to hell. Together. What the fuck is this about doing only huge-profitting business? What about giving semi-decent services to your paying customers? See how TMnet fared. Lousy services, lousy people, lousy everything. Everyone fucking hates it now. So do I, and that's why I switched to Jaring. Which is also bad, but not as bad as TMnet.
I believe that Malaysia is currently the most backward-moving country when it comes to IT and Internet Connectivity. What the fuck is happening to our goddamn country? I think I wanna move. I think these stupid stuffs are just killing my patriotism. So much for being proud as a Malaysian. We're travelling at 0mph, and it's getting us nowhere. 0mph... or -1mph. Take your pick.
You wanna know what I'm upset? I'll tell you why. The last time I have a problem concerning IT and the Malaysian government was my education: I wanted to take the IT test for my SPM, and the PPD told me that it's a subject reserved for special schools (and we all know what those "special schools" are: private, snobby, rich-ass's school which the entrance fees are probably RM1000 or something). I was upset. And I still am upset... how dare they discriminate me by my school? What's so goddamn bad about government-schooled kids... are we stupid or something?!
And now this. How much can I take anymore? Maybe I need a break from Malaysia. Seriously. My friends from abroad can hardly believe that Malaysian ISPs doesn't offer fixed rate dialup access, cable or DSL line, and that we have such silly problems. Damn, I feel so stupid, being Malaysian. I'm looked upon as stupid, and I can see why.
Fuck fuck fuckity fuck. :`(
I hate blackheads. Ugh. Anyone knows how to get rid of them without using the age-old pressing method? I mean, squeezing them out just sounds so disgusting. :(
I'm too tired to do anything at the moment... and darn, I still have to eat the damned medicine.
I'm sick today, so I don't have any tuition to go to at the moment.
So to pass time, I'm slowly getting to my email and replying to them. Just to get away from homework for now. Heh.
Does anyone think that I'm nuts for being online at this moment? I'm suppose to go to school!
I forgot, I'm supposed to go onstage today, for the dumb Star Student thingy. Bah!
I find Dican incredibly amusing sometimes. Hehe. Read her January 12th entry. :)
Damn, I can't check my mail. Anyone knows why?
I'm gonna go and pack my schoolbag now. Be back later. :)
And no, I ended up not doing my NIE although I had promised Pn. Tan that I would hand it up on Sunday. Well... Pn. Tan, I'm afraid my homework schedule was kind of packed for the weekend with all the dumb summaries. Next time you could just excuse me from these lousy exercises and then maybe I'd do that NIE thingy.
*grins*
Oops... my mom's awake!
Oh well. I think I need to go and shower soon.
It's darn cold here... the fan is turned to the fastest, and it's raining outside... I like rain like these. Rain without thunderstorms... they make me... sleepy...
Hrmm... I think I have more things to update about during the holidays. Once school started, it seemed as if my life ended. Strange.
I think I owe my BM teacher two essays... and I think this is nuts. All of the sudden the load of work is catching me offguard, and personally, I think it's taking a shock effect upon my puny brain. I wonder if it can keep up with everything. Gosh, I so do not want to look into the mirror today. I might just shock myself to death. And wonder if someone gave me a couple of black eyes.
Someone told me that Jaring is gonna be bought over by TMnet... is it true? It sounds oh-so-unbelievable, but... what if? Someone please tell me if it's true or not... I don't read the newspaper after all!
I think it's past time I seek around for another ISP. Anyone has any recommendations?
How on Earth can the dumb connection be stuffed when it's 6am and no one is online at 6am except crazy people like me?
Okay... I'm done with the stupid summaries... I wonder if I should do the English NIE now too. Ugh. I feel so lazy at the moment... and I need food!
Ack, I think I need another keyboard... I keep making dumb typos... and my brother is getting pissed with my keyboard because he said it's so damn hard to type with the the keys that keep sticking. Bleh.
DigitalRice had been down for a few good hours a while ago. I think it's working fine now though.
Thanks to those who had been concerned enough to tell me. :)
I'm hungry...
I have finished my English summary, and now I'm in process of doing my BM one. I'm halfway done, and I'm stuck. Ugh. I feel so stupid now. What is "ignorant" in BM? What about "Mother Nature"? How do you say "turning a deaf ear" in BM?
My gosh, my BM really sucks. And I've been studying it since... forever? How pathetic. Seriously, how pathetic, Pei.
Can someone help me?
I feel so tired... damn, I still have two summaries (one for English and the other for BM) to do... what hell. And then there's NIE for Pn. Tan.
All of them are due in 4 hours time. How will I survive?
A couple of days ago, I saw Britney Spear's Stronger video on NTV7. For the first time, yes. I don't really mind Britney all that much. She's just another singer who some people like and other people don't. What do I care?
But man, she sure looks like she's trying to screw the chair.
I hate AIM. It had crashed on me for the last five times. Rawr!
"oh yes.. sorry.. i thought u were my fren.. her name is also pei vern.."
That's one odd thing! I mean, Pei Vern is such a weirdly spelt name. Hehehehe... look, everyone, I'm not longer the only Pei Vern around!
As long as I don't end up as the same Pei Vern she's talking about. Eekz. Think how odd that would be.
You know, I'm that way too. I'm scared of failures, I'm scared of rejection, and I'm scared of showing my weaknesses to other people.
That itself is already one of my weaknesses, as twisted as this sounds.
The link to my diary from my article at Purple Sofa has rendered a lot of hits to my diary. And some even ventured as far as my personal website (and those are the lucky ones who get to see my photos... which everyone had been asking about but never bothered to click a few extra links to get to it... hehe). I don't know if that's good or bad. Now, so long I can keep my offline friends away from there... *grins*
Hmm... I have added *goes off to count* 10 people to my ICQ list the past 2 days.
That's a lot, in case you don't know.
I didn't know it was advertized in The Star newspaper too... I'll have to go check or something, but then I don't know where they put the newspaper already.
And yeah, I guess the "Terengganu" part was a total giveaway... hehe. Okay, maybe not totally, but at least it gives you a hunch and if you read some of my journal entries, I did hinted something about it a few weeks back. Or did I tell you before?
I think I like to play with sharp things too much. I've been meddling with a twin-blade disposable shaving razor lately. And that thing almost slice through my fingers a few times.
Thank goodness there's still no blood.
Steph, why not write an article for the newspaper too? Or at least for the e-zine thingy. *grins* It was an interesting experience, looking at something that's not published or uploaded by yourself, but someone else.
I'm still not used to the idea. Hehe.
The orange bathroom light thought it was a disco light a few minutes ago. It kept blinking and blinking and blinking. I was getting a headache just washing my hands in there.
Kidding! But the light was really acting up just now. But my brother had replaced it with a new bulb. Now it's normal again.
I know the phrase was "an apple a day keeps the doctor away".
But I can't help but eat two at once.
People are going to hate me. *grins*
I heard that RedRival.Com is going to start charging $12 per year for their FTP although the webspace is still free.
I don't know how he managed to add me into his ICQ contact list without asking for my authorization. I did set my preferences. Oh wait, I remember this hack I installed back in 1999 on the old computer that can let me add people into my ICQ contact list without asking for authorization. Guess that's not such a mystery. Otherwise, ICQ had screwed up once again!
Of course, not to say that I would bite off anyone's head or anything like that. And usually I'm a nice girl who lets people add her to their list (heh), unless they didn't introduce themselves, state a valid reason, or tell me where they got my UIN. If you did either one of those, it's most probably you're qualified enough for an authorization.
But I'd like to at least feel in control of what's going on in my life.
Oh yeah, his site isn't that bad either. Kind of cute, how the animations of the machineries working. Hehe. And it's great to see another Malaysian personal website that don't just consist poorly coded HTML and one topic called "my pet Fluffy". ;)
The Koi Fishes painting seems to attract a lot of attention. Hrrmm? That was my latest painting, and I hated the pink lily flower on the top left corner. It's cropped out by my stupid scanner, so you won't be able to understand why I didn't quite like that piece of painting. Hehe.
But so long you get entertained. ;)
I found out that a lot of people tell me they can't sign my guestbook because it's not found. There's a reason to this. Earlier in the weblog I'd said I've moved my guestbook (or rather, DigitalRice moved it for me)... guess no one read that message, huh?
Old URL: http://digitalrice.com/cgi-bin/scout/guestbook/guestbook.cgi
New URL: http://digitalrice.com/scout/cgi-bin/guestbook/guestbook.cgi
Notice that the cgi-bin is now in my folder? Yep, that's the small difference. I didn't change the direct link to it because I'm moving from Waterfallen.Com to Coloured-Glass.Com very soon. But that's kind of stupid of me.
I'll try to get to it now. ;)
Why the hell am I doing up at this hour?
I'll tell you why. I slept at 9pm because I was tired from staying up until 4am last night, and then woke up at 2am (5 hours of sleep).
My biological clock is so screwed up.
I passed my test without flying colors. *grins* I just passed it, that's all.
Better than nothing.
Being strong when hard cold reality stomp upon you. That's a nice advice to follow. I've always been strong, I've always hated showing weaknesses. But I've been so strong for so long, I've forgotten how it feels to have true, humane emotions.
I'd better go to sleep now. Good night. Wish me luck for tomorrow's test (I don't want a retest!).
I'm supposed to call up PC Partner tomorrow to get the USB port (um?) which costs RM35. Eekz. Computer products can render someone broke.
Another reason to call them up is so that they can fix my goddamn laptop.
Arrrrgggghhhhhh!!! I just typed an email to Athena and when I clicked send, all of the sudden IncrediMail crashed.
I have this friggin' road law test I have to sit for tomorrow morning (or rather, today), and I haven't studied for it yet.
And I need a decent sleep. Sigh.
I like the "Don't learn German" part. Hehe.
I took this personality test at The Spark and it tells me that I'm a Mastermind. Here's the description:
MASTERMIND
(Submissive Introverted Abstract Thinker)
Like just 9% of the population you are a MASTERMIND (SIAT). You can be silent and withdrawn, but behind your reserved exterior lies an active mind that allows you to analyze situations and come up with creative, unexpected solutions. Normal people call this "scheming." Don't learn German.
Anyway, your sense of style and originality are your strengths, and people will respect your judgment once they get to know you. If you learn to be a little more personable, you could be a great leader--you've definitely got the "vision" thing down. Just make sure all the plotting you do behind those eyes of yours is healthy.
Well... it also shows your compatibility with someone else who took the test. If you want to add me to your list, I used midnighter@softhome.net as my email address. :)
Ugh! I have school to go to tomorrow!
*plonk*
285 emails. Unread.
Oh my gosh, I'm so lazy in reading emails and now it's piling up. I should really start getting to it.
By the way, I think Chester (my 11-year-old cousin) somehow killed my laptop. It doesn't work anymore.
No matter how much you try not to care, in the end people's opinions of you still make up what your world will contain and how your life will go. Because you're not living in a solitary world, contrary to popular beliefs.
Zhi Ling has a new layout again. I don't know where she got all these ideas and inspirations from, but it must've been a very good source. She keep making awesome designs over and over again.
I feel inferior.
I'm back in Kemaman. Just got back a few minutes ago. It's late, and I'm tired. Sigh.
I need to go soon. To eat dinner.
Besides, the smoke is filling up the room and it really hurts my eyes. I can barely keep them open now.
Referring to this post, the answer to everything is here.
Sorry I left you guys hanging.
Guess what, people? I'm moving to Coloured-Glass.Com, thanks to Stacy! *grins*
I know this is going to sound freaky. But I knew Coloured-Glass.Com (the domain Stacy is going to co-host soon). No wonder it sounded so familiar. Today I went there again to check it out, and it was the same domain I once frequented.
I went there before because of this girl who was hosted there under the name Aurora. If she is who I think she is, then she and I was once hosted at the same domain before both of us made our breakaway. Before we went to our separate paths.
If she is who I think she is, then she was once my closest friend online. Oh so long ago.
Oh yeah. DigitalRice? I have yet to find out a way for it to support weblogging. Or maybe it's just me.
Or maybe it's just Blogger.
For the record, I won't be in school on Sunday (my weekend is Friday and Saturday).
I was gone for pretty long, huh? Over 24 hours already. Normally people can't keep me away from the computer for that long. But something happened last night and I can't really explain it now. I'm not even at home now.
But I'l explain it later. I promise.
Sigh. Moving. I've been thinking about it. The thing is, I'm going to try out weblogging at DigitalRice. If DigitalRice doesn't support it, I guess I'll have to scrap this weblogging idea and stick to normal journalling only.
You know what I've been waiting for this whole day? Yeah, to get out of school.
Cause today's a Thursday!
Wheeeeeeeeee............ weekends!
I haven't made my decision yet. But come to think of it, it's not really afternoon anymore, is it?
I'm trying to make a choice between taking an afternoon nap and jotting a snail mail letter to Lee Lian. I didn't sleep much yesterday night (I slept at almost 5). The funny thing is that I don't feel tired. But my eyes hurt. Felt like I just got punched in both eyes and they're bruising up.
They sure look that way too.
Odd... I haven't experience anything particularly traumatic regarding my posts in this weblog. I mean, it seems like everyone is losing their posts, but I'm... not?
Either I'm extremely forgetful, or that something weird is going on. But of course, I always keep a copy of my post in my clipboard before clicking on "Post & Publish", so in case my post went missing or I get disconnected, I wouldn't lost everything I typed.
I've been extremely cautious with whatever I post online lately, in case I lose a long post. ;)
Personally, I quite like that necklace of yours.
Bad news, people. I'm moving (again). Waterfallen will be closing down soon, and that means I don't have a home anymore after that. Although I've been here just for a short while, it was beginning to feel like home. Now that it's not anymore... so... yeah, I'm moving. As for where I'll be going to next, I don't know yet. I'll either search around for a new home or just hop back into freeserver.
Either one works, I guess. I'll survive. I always had in the past anyway.
I'm at school right now. *grins* Yes, accessing the net from school's computer with their ISDN line for personal usage. Am I evil or what? ;)
You may think that I'm one sick person, but I've stared in facination as I watched cockroaches devour a dead cockroach as I sat in the bus to KL. And right now I'm watching black ants climbing all over and biting at a fallen dragonfly. Fallen, but not dead yet. It keeps flapping its wings desperately to shake them off. But the ants still climb around and bite it repeatedly. Until it stops moving. Until it dies.
It's a sick world we live in.
How true. I happen to live in Malaysia (which is not so far from China) and I don't know the Hubei dialect. Hah, funny, don't you think? But I've never heard anyone speaking it either, so I wouldn't recognize it. There are not many Hubei's in Malaysia, so even if I know the dialect, I'm probably very rusty due to no practice. I think it's because the province of Hubei is smacked right in the middle of China (or somewhere near there). Normally the ones who fled China are the ones who are living near the sea, right?
I'm an endangered species. ;) Oh yes, I am. There are only so few Hubei's around here, and so many Hainan, Hokkien, Hakka, Cantons, etc etc etc.
Back to the dialect issue, I've been told that Hubei sounds amazingly like a Westerner trying to speak some Chinese dialect. Have you ever seen Cantonese gambling dramas with a Westerner inside and he's talking in Cantonese with the weird accent? Yeah, something like that. *grins* Perhaps that is why I picked up the English language so easily, because of the "tongue" descended from my ancestors?
For some reason, Sookie thinks I have a weird "slang".
Oh, shit. Did anyone know that SPM 2001 starts on November 5th? That's so freaking early!! And knowing them, they might just make it even earlier instead! That happened with PMR. I swear, my year is so screwed. This is not fair to us. I mean, come on! I've been in school for two days and we didn't learn anything. The teachers aren't even in the goddamned class!
Okay, that's the sign that I'm freaking out because of school already. It doesn't happen every year, so you guys get a special one-time view of this. Form Five. SPM. Eekz.
Oh, shit.
When I get out of school at the end of this year, I'm going to do something with my hair. I'll either:
a) Highlight or streak it with subtle deep blue and maroon, and maybe a little dark brown.
b) Layer it and color the tips (and only the tips) dark gold.
c) Just give it a different cut and forget about the haircolor.
I'm never gonna dye my whole head blonde or hot pink or anything drastic like that. Heh. But coloring the hair might just kill my hair entirely, so I'm still wondering if I should even highlight it.
Hrm... come to think of it, coloring the hair makes people look at you weird. Yeah, don't judge people by their looks, but coloring your hair is somewhat like a resemblance of your personality. I don't know how to explain it, but I know what it is that makes them think so, deep inside. And I think I'm that way too.
I would like my hair really black (without using hairdye). Then I probably wouldn't have these crazy ideas of coloring them any other colors because I might just be satisfied with it. Not because black is cool or anything, but it's just a symbol of a healthy hair (Asians are supposed to have black hair, right?), and I wouldn't risk killing a hair that's perfectly healthy. Only that it's a bit brownish now, because of the extra exposure to the sunlight outside and the chlorin in the water.
Oh well. I've only started school two days ago, so why am I thinking about the end of the year?
It's in the middle of the night, and I'm hungry. Very. I skipped dinner, so the last time I ate or drank anything was lunch at 2pm when I just got back from school.
Whoa, that's like, almost twelve hours ago.
I'll just run downstairs to the kitchen and get myself some food. Or something. I really need to eat something right now, and why the heck is Kemaman shops not open at this hour?!
That sounds so amazingly like me too, Lauryn. I can't write anymore. I can't think anymore. I don't know whether it's because of the school limitations or because I've fallen out of practice, but I feel really out of it now. I feel... empty. And uninspired. And stale.
No pun intended.
I have searched high and low for Interview With a Vampire by Anne Rice. But for some reason it's not found in the bookstores anymore. Weird. I'd settle for The Witching Hour though, if only I can find it also. Diva once offered to mail me a copy because she has two copies or more of everything Anne Rice writes, but I told her that I'd get back at her about that when I can't find it over here.
I don't think I'd ever though. Mail her about it, I mean. And there are reasons of my own that only some will understand.
It's been a long time since I last stepped into any bookstores.
This is interesting. I've recieved a short email from Ramesh. Official business, of course. About Si2Net. It goes:
"The SEED program at Sultan Ismail II, will be headed by Hanif Rozano, Ang Teck Leong and the team. Their contacts are hanif@smksi2.edu.my and teckleong@smksi2.edu.my or si2net@smksi2.edu.my."
Does that mean that I'm finally free of any responsibilities? O.o
Is Blogger the one who is slow, or is my PC once again pissing me off by crawling at a snail pace?
Sigh.
Ugh. My PC is so slow compared to my laptop. I think it's because I have too much stuffs on my PC, and my laptop had hardly anything. What do you expect when I have 8GB of space on my PC and only a mere 2GB on the laptop? Of course I abuse the 8GB of space. Muahahahaha!
Hahaha... oh yes, I've finally adopted an IBM laptop of my own. As everyone knows, it's not really "mine". But then again, I keep it in my room and no one else uses it. And a few days ago, my dad said he wants to exchange the laptops (he has one of his own) because, naturally, I set up mine and it's fully working. ;) I guess he wants me to set up the other one too.
So is it mine or what? :)
I don't use my copy of Corel Draw 8 anymore because it loads too slow and I'm an impatient person. I used to use it (and Corel Photo-Paint) a lot when I didn't have Paint Shop Pro. And now I got Adobe Photoshop installed in my computer too... but I haven't tried it out yet.
Do I sound wacko?
"Perma link" is an odd name. It sounds... bleh. In fact, I don't even like that name.
So I'll just call it permanent link.
Not updating as often? Yeah, I know. School is messing with my non-school-related life. Sucks, doesn't it?
But keep checking the weblog. And diary.
Or something.
The junkmails keep piling in. Everytime I delete one, another gets sent to my inbox. Grr.
For the record, I'm still in SC1. Ee Lynn got me kind of worried that I'd drop into SC2 during the holidays (we only have two Science classes). And we didn't get our results back yet then (in fact, we didn't even get our results yet now!). I was damn scared of dropping classes, cause my parents would kill me if I ever did.
Oh, the pressures of having older siblings. You just have to follow in their footsteps.
Not that 5SC1 is so fun to be in. You're expected to be the best students. You're expected to have your report cards adorned with A's until the sides. You're expected to be quiet when the teacher's not around. You're expected to be a bookworm and study all the time.
You also get a hell lot of lectures, that's for sure.
I checked the mail today. Hey, two cards! Yep, Christmas cards, all the way from USA. They're from Lia and Sati. Earlier I'd gotten Aurin's, and Rachel's, and also Lauryn's.
Thanks everyone! The cards are lovely. :)
2nd day of school. For everyone else, it's the 1st day. For Steph, school didn't start yet. Lucky her.
Anyway, I wonder how Lee Lian is faring. First day at the convent school in Teluk Intan, Perak. Whoa. Never thought any of us would end up in a girls' school. I'm too used to having guys around in class.
Okay, I'm bored.
I'm not meant to sit down quietly and do nothing. Or stand quietly and do nothing. When waiting for someone, I would pace. Or I would start playing with the plastic clasp on my folder. Or shift my backpack around a lot.
Ugh. I always need to do something. I just can't keep quiet and do nothing. No wonder teachers tend to hate me.
I tend to dismember pens too. A weird habit I have. But the good thing is that I fix all the pens and mechanical pencils when something goes wrong with them.
Come to think of it, I fix a lot of stuffs when I'm bored.
You know, during the KL trip with my friends, I met with Sookie. One of the first things I said to her was, "Staying in KL makes me want to chop off my hair."
How can you stand having long hair in that kind of weather, Steph? It's hot!
The reason why I want a webcam is because my mom is always on my case for "wasting" films. I'm not wasting, I'm... uh... creative photographing (hehe, decended from "creative writing"). Or something. Hehe. But she's always saying how expensive the films are nowadays. The way I keep on snapping, you'd think they only cost ten cents apiece. ;)
Besides that, I'm also too lazy to send the films to the shops and wait for them to be developed.
So anyway, I've used that argument. How unfortunate for me that my smart-ass second oldest brother is there to argue back.
But I think I'll be able to buy it. So when are you going webcam shopping, Steph? I'll be in KL for a few days during Chinese New Year, but I wonder if the shops will be open?
Haha... I slept at 4am yesterday! So much for being a really good student and sleeping early.
Today marks the end of my freedom. Today is the first day of the new year I'm stepping into the school. Today is the beginning of the end of the beginning.
Whatever they called it.
Today...
Today, I'm legally a Form Five student and this is the first day of my doom.
I'm here, clad in my old uniform with my hair up, sitting and walking around, still in process of getting ready for the first day of school.
Aww... school holidays had ended.
For those who are wondering where the hell is my guestbook now, it's here.
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee............. Mike's the coolest! Not only he helped me find back my old cgi-bin, now all my cgi files are are transferred to my directory.
Cool!
Err... I think I just lost my cgi-bin. I log into FTP, and I can't find the cgi-bin. But when I go to my guestbook, it's there!
Weird.
I don't really remember what we have bring to school on the first day of the year. So I'm sitting here, getting myself confused when I'm supposed to report myself back at school in six hours time.
What? Why are you looking at me that way?
*grins* You know, I'd like to hear Sookie speak Cantonese again. Hehe. Like that day at Burger King.
Right? =P
I think BTS* Syndrome is something else, Zhi Ling. I'm having pimples all over my forehead now. Sheesh. And during the holidays, my skin was being so nice to me.
* BTS = Back to School
Everyone thinks I'm crazy. Everyone says I'm nuts. Everyone tells me to go to sleep. Soon.
Well... I wasn't nicknamed "Midnighter" for nothing.
I wonder how late I'm going to stay up tonight. Should I quit early and decide to wake up all fresh and ready for school? Or should I just enjoy my last few hours of freedom?
Wait a minute. All fresh and ready for school? Fat chance. Was I ever that way?
I guess it'll be the latter, thank you.
It's already January 2nd. The first day of the new year had officially ended.
And I have school today.
Being a cheerful and energetic person is good. I like you better this way. :) Don't change back. Hehe. Sometimes I think being moody and depressive takes up too much energy. I wonder where all those energy goes.
And please, being cheerful does not equal Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera.
By the way, I like Terminator 2 too. Haha. And futuristic stuffs aren't that bad.
You know, when you hear the song "Who Let the Dogs Out", it sounds amazingly like "Hou Leng Ge Zhuo Sau" (Cantonese), which means "A Very Beautiful Left Hand".
It's 11.30pm now. I'm dead.
I think I might be losing my sense of website design. In a desperate attempt to shake off the infamous grey bug, I just made a layout with blue, yellow, and red to fit into the category of "yellow" and "eye-catching".
And I'm not kidding. As impossible as it is to design something with these colors, I managed. I don't know whether the results is good or bad, but... it's okay. Not too hideous, I hope! So far I've showed it to three people, and no one had reported blindness. One comment I keep getting, "Striking."
Blue, yellow, and red. Mega-bright, ultra-constrasting colors. And also extremely painful on the eyes. Doesn't that just reminds you of... a homepage newbie? Yeah, like those stuffs you see back in 1996.
You people are just lucky I didn't throw in a couple of flashing animations. Haha.
Oh... my... God.
Today is 01/01/01. And it's almost 10pm.
Oh shit.
I haven't written my play yet!
Pn. Tan is going to not only kill me, she's going to burn my head too!
For the record, I'm neither talented or artistically inclined. I'm an painter-in-training and attending weekly classes, and we all know that talent can't be made, you have to be born with it.
Music Industry:
I changed about a dozen of piano teachers. Couldn't stand any of them.
I wouldn't practice because I had a goddamn hard to play piano.
I quitted piano at Grade 2.
I picked up guitar and started to self-learn.
I listened to my brothers' teachings.
I got some tabs from the net and played a few songs for fun.
I stopped playing for a few months.
I picked the guitar up again and try to relearn.
I have a voice that sounds like crap.
Writing Industry:
I've been at it since ten years old.
I've gotten seriously into it at twelve.
I've changed my style from time to time.
I suck at poetry.
I kill most of my characters in my short stories.
I've gotten nowhere. Not that I expect to, anyway.
Painting Industry:
I've always been interested in it.
I started taking classes at the age of 14.
I've gotten this far.
I'm still talent-less.
Acting Industry:
Don't even go there. I'm scared of the stage.
I'm a very convincing liar though.
Handiwork Industry:
I poked myself too many times to like sewing.
I don't have the patience to deal with cross-stitch.
I don't work well with wood products.
I like playing with clay. Except that I don't really know how to make anything decent.
Zhi Ling, it's not only strange to you to call me "Pei" instead of "Pei Vern" like you used to. It's also as strange to me to hear you call me "Pei". I've gotten used to being called "Pei Vern" by you.
I guess that means we're pretty much equal, huh?
But still I go by both. My family calls me "Pei Vern" although there's no other "Pei" in the household (and even in my extended family). I'm just too lazy to explain the pronounciation to both characters to people who don't speak Chinese. *grins* So when I said my name is "Pei" and you pronounce it "Pay", it's pretty much correct.
But somehow even my offline friends is calling me "Pei" too. Strange. *confused* Must be one of the growing up things. Hehe.
By the way, thanks for the card. It was cute. Sorry I didn't send one back. Hehehehe. You know me, I don't even send e-cards anymore.
Oh yeah, my AIM is back!
I'm crystal reverie, if you're interested in knowing. I used to use pei vern, but... blah. Hehe.
There's a meaning behind it. Everyone asks me what it means. I use the nick "crystal reverie" because I think dreams are much too easily shattered, like glass. And the word "crystal" makes it sound extremely delicate and fragile, and I think dreams should be treasured. Without dreams, what are you living for?
I can't help it that I'm a dreamer.
Did you know that "Pei" is actually a guy's name? It was also a Chinese generation name. I read from a few historical/autobiographical books (Wild Swans, Daughter of China, etc), and they have guys with the name "Pei".
But nowadays all Pei's I know are girls. So it's pretty hard to imagine a guy being called "Pei".
Look, a Zhi Ling who is also 16 years old. And lives in Malaysia too.
How freaky can that be?
Sometimes I wish I live somewhere else.
If I did, maybe things would've been different.
Yes, school starts tomorrow. For me. In fact, school starts in exactly 11 hours from now.
You forget, I live in Terengganu. My weekends are on Friday and Saturday. That means I normally start school one day earlier than the rest of the country.
Life sucks, doesn't it?
I'm back from Joan's place. It was okay. She's fine now, I guess. We just hung out, chatted, ate, scammed someone online... and nothing else, I suppose. Oh yeah, I dropped by Ee Lynn's place to pick her up before I went over to Joan's place, so it was a threesome little gathering.
The Christmas tree in her house is so big and colorful. Aww.
Poor Joan isn't enjoying her holidays. Aww... and she claims that this is her worst New Year ever. She really sounded depressed and disappointed that I couldn't make it for lunch at her place (she impulsively called me up yesterday and invited me over).
So I'm going over later to cheer her up a little. At about 4pm or something. After all, school starts tomorrow. We only have one more day of freedom left.
Might as well enjoy it while it lasts.
I think Sookie has quite forgotten about my house phone (if I dare to call long distance from my house phone, that is). She only know my cellphone number. And besides that, in my immediate family there are five cellphones (including mine).
*evil grin*
Sookie and Pei were shy... ~ Tiffany's team weblog on December 28th.
*grins*
And for some reason I don't find walking around very tiring. Maybe it's because I'm wearing flat soles made for walking? Hehe. It was the one after KLCC "expedition" that really killed me. My mother, the shopaholic.
Wow, I guess everyone had fun for the new year. Only I sulked around in the house.
And called people from my phone. Hahahaha. But the only long distance phonecall I made was to Sookie. See? That's the benefits of giving me your phone number. *grins* I might just go crazy and phone you up long-distance.
Oh yeah, if you're on my ICQ list, it also means you're getting a hell lot of offline messages wishing you a happy new year.
Ladies and Gentlemen, it's 010101, the Binary Code of the Year. Or is the the Year of Binary Code?
Enjoy, cause this day only lasts for 24 hours, and comes once a millenium. Man, are we people lucky or what?
My guestbook's back! *gasp*
I love DigitalRice!! Wheee!!
And yeah, Stephanie was the first one to sign it since its... er... revival. *grin* Thanks Steph.
Whoa, four seconds. Hehe.
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